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living is something i dont want to do anymore its just so damn hard. my life is so ******** up right now that i cant even think straight...................my dad taking my mom to courtto get full custody of me...everyone at school in the most pointless fights ever...everyone in my neighborhood ******** pissed at me for moving in with my dad... i just cant stand it anymore. im usually an a student but im already flunking almost all of my classes. im getting clumsier by the day. i cant stand living life this way anymore. i swear i just cant do it anymore.

crying crying crying even tho i have more friends and people my age here, i still feel lonlier than hell. i miss 2 people mainly, and now i feel like i have no reason to live. cry it will be 3 months until i see them again, and i feel like i cant wait that long. the only thing thats keeping me from killing myself right now is a promise. a promise that i made to one of those 2 people. if it werent for that promise, i wouldnt be here typing this to u now, ryan. u are keeping me alive right now, and i think im getting better and better every day at keeping calm and not beating myself up for getting things wrong. thank u for saving my life. heart

every thought of evil and death is out of me and i think i am the happiest person alive because of the last two days. i have spent them with my love ryan for he is my lover, protector, and savior. we have been together, without interruption, and these two days have made me whole once again. this is dedicated to ryan. heart heart heart

i dont no wats happened. the world is upside down. im in love with my friends brother and she is mad at both of us for some reasons i dont no and some i do.