ive been thinking lately about why i haven't been doing art as of late, and i recently said that my job and school got in the way and blah blah blah.
that was all an excuse.
the one and only reason that I've stopped doing art is because i have gotten lazy. laziness, brought on by the rising difficulty to do the art i want. I don't like to be sucky at things, and most of the time i cant just tell myself "its okay, your learning." thats my problem. i want to be instantly amazing at artwork, and thats not how it works, i almost gave up on art because is was lieing to myself, saying that it just doesn't seem like the right thing. im just lazy and it needs to stop.
art was the first thing ive really been sure about, it was the first thing that i was happy with doing, and now that it gets difficult and a little aggravating, i just give up. i feel like kicking myself.
Im not going to let myself give up on things anymore, because to be honest, my laziness has been effecting more than just art.
so thats my rant, if you have read it than good for you, this journal entry is more for my reflection than anything else.
that was all an excuse.
the one and only reason that I've stopped doing art is because i have gotten lazy. laziness, brought on by the rising difficulty to do the art i want. I don't like to be sucky at things, and most of the time i cant just tell myself "its okay, your learning." thats my problem. i want to be instantly amazing at artwork, and thats not how it works, i almost gave up on art because is was lieing to myself, saying that it just doesn't seem like the right thing. im just lazy and it needs to stop.
art was the first thing ive really been sure about, it was the first thing that i was happy with doing, and now that it gets difficult and a little aggravating, i just give up. i feel like kicking myself.
Im not going to let myself give up on things anymore, because to be honest, my laziness has been effecting more than just art.
so thats my rant, if you have read it than good for you, this journal entry is more for my reflection than anything else.
