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I got into a fight with my mom.. I guess.. cause she was mad about me not helping her right at that moment with laundry.. I didn't hear her in the other room.. so.. when dinner arrived.. she says, 'you'll leave the room for food but not to help' So I responded, telling her I didn't hear her and she says yeah right.. so.. I stand there in a daze and she turns to me, 'Are you just gonna stand there?'.. so I start helping her and she says I never help her, so I said you didn't ask for help with this right now and she blows up and tells me to shut the hell up and not talk to her.. so I start to walk away.. and she calls me useless.. which later when I say I don't appreciate her saying that she says 'if the shoes fits' So now.. I'm really depressed with myself.. and my parents wonder why I have no self esteem... so.. I also talk to my friend and she tells me that I've changed.. in a good way I guess... cause.. she respects me after a year and a half of being friends.. so.. I suppose that's good.. but.. nothing.. really drastic has changed.. so I don't know what I did to have her respect me.. so now.. I'm really depressed and.. suicidal.. I need to see my counselor.. I haven't seen her in over a month or two.. cause I was doing good for a while.. but now.. I'm seriously thinking about hurting myself again... cry
 Ashira · Mon Aug 15, 2005 @ 06:22am · 1 Comments |
