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A new beginning...s**t.
Yesterday I spent the whole afternoon moving my twin sister into her dorm room at Western Washington University. It wasn't until the ride home that I started to cry silently but uncontrollably. It finally hit me that everyone I had considered a friend had left me. I'm not saying they left BECAUSE of me. I just realized the reality that I have no one left but mom anymore. Friends went to college, other friends faded away, and now sister has left the nest too. It's a terrible feeling to realize that everyone around you has done something worse than abandoning you; they've started to grow up. I'm told by my good friend Zeki ( Not her real name of course. razz ) That I'll make friends at Community College, and I'm sure I will. It just sucks sometimes when you have a problem no one can fix, and it's not always a bad thing, it's just change taking place. I kissed my childhood goodbye on Monday night and finally accepted that the second part of my life had come at least, and I could drown or float. It's all up to me. That's not too much pressure.
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