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So, Im starting to feel a little better, and its kinda secret as to why ^_~

In an update I almost have the second most expensive thing on my 3rd avvie ^_^

You know i really hate internet... You get attachted to people, but deep down inside you know that you probobly wont see them... But you cant stop talking to them, because you alwase have that shread of hope... It really kills me because so many of my internet relationships and friends have been broken because I cant move any closer to them then talking with no pitch or emotion.., and eventually written word becomes dull and meaningless without emotion attached...

It pains me to know that in the future I will never really get to know anyone on here... crying however much I want to.

For instance, Me and my friend zach are saveing up for an RV. Once we graduate, we are going on a year-long road trip ^^. Anyway, my point was, at this one point in time, I had this Really, really good friend. We had it all set up, we were going to meet him. He got board of the game we were playing, and even though we promiced to keep in touch, it didnt happen... I havnt heard of him scence, and lost his adress...

Name: Sean
Birthday: 11/20/1990
Birthplace: Pleasanton, California
Current Location: Same ^^
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'10"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: IRISH
The Shoes You Wore Today: My only pair, Black Vans
Your Weakness: Girls that wear Glasses. Eyes are really attractive, and they magnify them. ^^
Your Fears: Spiders
Your Perfect Pizza: PIZZA... IS... PERFECT
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Not go to summer school ^^
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: " razz "
Thoughts First Waking Up: WHO THE F**K WOKE ME UP?!
Your Best Physical Feature: My eyes i think
Your Bedtime: Whenever i feel like it normally
Your Most Missed Memory: Sarah... crying I MISS YOU!
Pepsi or Coke: Dont like soda. DRINK WATER!
MacDonalds or Burger King: w/e
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Both
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee
Do you Smoke: No
Do you Swear: Occationally
Do you Sing: I suck at it
Do you Shower Daily: Normally
Have you Been in Love: Yes
Do you want to go to College: If I can
Do you want to get Married: Yes
Do you belive in yourself: Kinda
Do you get Motion Sickness: No
Do you think you are Attractive: I donno...
Are you a Health Freak: No
Do you get along with your Parents: Not really crying
Do you like Thunderstorms: Yeah
Do you play an Instrument: Used to

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Once
In the past month have you Smoked: No
In the past month have you been on Drugs: No
In the past month have you gone on a Date: No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: No
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: YES! ZOMG SUSHI!
In the past month have you been on Stage: No
In the past month have you been Dumped: No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Nope

Ever been Drunk: Yes
Ever been called a Tease: No
Ever been Beaten up: No
Ever Shoplifted: Yes
How do you want to Die: In a way that is rememberable
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Architecht / Photographer
What country would you most like to Visit: AUSTRAILIA! IM MOVEING THERE WITH KEVIN WHEN WE GRADUATE (one of my best friends XD)

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Blue
Favourite Hair Color: Brown
Short or Long Hair: Medium
Height: above 5', shorter then me ^^
Weight: w/e doesnt really matter as long as they arnt anerexic
Best Clothing Style: Black w/ color accsents

Number of Drugs I have taken: None that wernt subsribed
Number of CDs I own: like 20
Number of Piercings: None
Number of Tattoos: None
Things in my Past I Regret:
Leaveing Sarah... (If, by chance you are reading this... im so sorry sad )
Not going out with Steph... a few other things

Allright I cant take this anymore

School SUCKS

Ok, here is my school history:

1st-5th grade:
I compleatly screwed around and learned like nothing.
6-8th grade:
I learn everything I should have in elementary school, in a private school, with a special teaching system
9-10th grade:
In Public high school, everyone expects so damn much from me, and it is REALLY hard for me to stay on track and do everything because I never learned how to deal with heavy workloads.

I am very depressed because noone really understands how I feel, and the just say:

"You know Sean, If you put in effort, you would be a straight-A Student"

its really starting to get me down, and now I feel like I havent been putting in any effort... but I know that I have, and that I cannot do any better. Everyone is makeing me so stressed out I cant deal with it anymore. If you freakin flame on this im gonna put you on my ignore list no joke. I know it sounds really gay and unmanlike, (but you know what, sociaty can shove it.) but my mom yelled at me for not doing this HUGE makeup assignment that wouldve had me staying up till like three. I totally broke down... I cried... for the first time in two years I cried.