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Im back for another entry, ive done some thinking over the past few weeks..about all sorts of things..the future of my career,the present state of myself..what i should do..and what iv done. but one thing caught my attention..my past goals. see a long time ago i wanted to become an engineer and develop my dreams with my own hands..(to be honest i have a knack for working with electronics and computers even though ive had no training whatsoever haha) but then i became afraid. I feared that what i would create would end up being used for purposes that i never intended. i feared that my dreams would be the death of many lives,and that was something that i couldn't handle. so at some point i got into music and used my skilled hands to create sounds that held the opposite effect of what i feared. now i want to create something that will please and fill peoples minds with beauty. i still enjoy working on electronics (i often find myself working on some computer hardware or on a stereo that needs repairing) and i catch myself thinking "i could do this for a living" but i know i cant..i guess that makes me pretty much a coward huh? i love music though..ive grown to love it..i dont have a knack for it..but i practice so much that ive become familiar and enjoy the challenge. its what keeps me going so to speak. i hope that someday i can become a teacher and share my knowledge of all that i know onto the next generation..cause in my mind..thats the only way of living. what good is it to be the best..when everything you have dies with you? sharing onto others is almost like living forever..in the thoughts of others you could say. well until next time (yes i know it was supposed to be weekly but hey...so?) take care!
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