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i hurt every time i cry, it feels as if thousands of demons are ripping my heart to shreds and laughing at this torment! no, this is not depression, just my way of dealing with pain, death, and reality...i hate it all, all of it...somedays i really do not want to go on but i know i have to, for not only me, but my family...friends...and everyone else! if you have the answerws to my pain, please, tell them to me so i may live again in this mortal realm! my eyes tear up no more for pain and hate are my lovers...life is my death, death is my life...how the hell am i to live, breathe, and do all that i must in a world that causes me to die each and every day?

I know, I know, its been a long while and all but at least I came on for once!!! Ever notice how people who dont understand you always try and conform you to their ways? It sucks and all, but thats why I keep myself the way I am...the crazy, dark loving, writer of poems and stories, and the like!