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Ah, how things change within a matter of a mere year or two. I've been looking back on my old entries and thinking of how far i've come and changed and i find it funny. To think of how i used to be, who my friends were and are now. The ones i miss and recall the good times that makes a person want to get back in touch, not to mention remembering ones lost as well due to one thing or another always ends up coming back to ya. One person i would like to mention was a friend of mine that i had met not too too long after i got on gaia. I was looking through to simply go change my avatar's look when i saw her own in my friends list and i'd like to say to wherever she may be, i hope she has peace and rest. And your missed Kawaii Kurisuta!

So many tastes and looks on life changed and how much it seems like time has passed within the last two years is all brought back with a few entries be them funny or not. It brings up a lot of different feelings that once had been and ones that you wonder "why the hell am i here?". I have to thank a few other people for the hard times and had been there for a long time. Ramsey Minamono for one and my love of my life and fiance, Delita-san. They've been there through a lot with me and it makes me miss our old times that it seems as of lately that we've been trying so hard to bring back and keep alive while be it work or school or whatever else gets in the way.

I really don't know what had me writing this, if maybe it was just the thoughts, or if perhaps just the lack of posting in here for a long time has some draw on me. But whatever the case, i'm pretty happy with where i am although there are some things i look back to what i had hopes for in the past and know that will never happen or if it will, it won't be for a long, long time. However, looking back on the past like that never really is a good thing right? It only gets a person down when all you can really do is make plans that will this time around hopefully work out. Right?

There's been a lot of changes for me within the past two years, some little, some big. I have additions to my game lists that i put up when i first started this journal and my music has been expanded thanks to friends and me being impressionable in a way that a lot of stuff is appealing. I write longer posts than when i first joined, being a noob and not realizing that i could be literate if i could seperate my text out into paragraphs and took the little *'s out untill someone told me ^^''. And i find it a bit sad that now i'm looking for something more than roleplaying. That even though things sound fun, that i'm quickly realizing that it just doesn't hold the fun it once did. I think it's because for so long it was focused to be so serious in the roleplay that there's really no surprises anymore... at least, not with the scenes, almost it's the same thing, just different characters and different scenes but nearly the same scenes...

Not to mention it seems so much of it's revolved around "who gets with who". I don't say that i'm not one that goes "oh this pairing would be cute!" or want to play it out. But i think because of that, and being able to actually have it without that mystery that once was, it makes things a little stale, and doesn't quiet hold the thrill that it once did when you just joined a thread and it either happened, or it didn't and the characters moved on. Now the roleplays are completely focused on who gets with who, and how.

But enough with that ^^'' that was just my little trailing thoughts. Other than that, an update is in order i do believe. I'm 20 now (whoohoo right?)! I have a job now as a waitress at the moment. Though i'm looking for a second job at the moment, kind of concidering it for a couple places while at the same time i'm unsure of just what i should do. For my first job really is a good start out but the pay really isn't good enough to be able to support one person let alone two. Speaking of which! I'm engaged now! And it's with a guy i actually met here on gaia! Shea or also known as Delita-san will be coming down here the 15th of next month for good and i swear each passing day feels like it's getting slower and slower, something i hate terribly, cause i miss him so badly that talking to him on the phone has become a primary thing than being online. Something of which i have to admit, that i'm kind of growing bored of being online sweatdrop . It feels like somethings missing from it all, and i'm not sure what it is. Although deep down i have a feeling that it has to do with me missing something that's real, a life that's real and isn't being surrounded by four walls all the time. Then again, maybe that's just me huh?

Well, i do think i've gone on quiet enough and it's kind of late and i do have work in the morning burning_eyes . That'll be fun, going in half dead from staying up till past 4am sweatdrop . Anyway, i'll write more later when insperation hits me again! For anyone that reads this that i havn't talked to in a while, drop me a pm!! Or just post here, either way works. I'd like to catch up and see what's all been going on with others. Anyway, i'm out! Goodnight ^_^

SierraKinglet

crying I cant belive that after being here for four months i'm finaly having to go home. And you know what? It sucks!! Well, I am kind of happy to be able to be going back to be able to see my family and aparantly i have a job waiting for me when i get back, but the entire thing of having to leave here hurts a lot more than i thought it would have four months ago. I've liked most of Shea's family, had a few problems and became friends with one family member i wasn't sure i would have been able to at the begining of this visit.

But lastnight it really hit me how within two days i'm not going to be here... and after being by Shea's side for the best seven months of my life, it's going to be really really hard not to cry when i have to go, not to mention one the way home. Because i wont have him there to hug, hold or kiss for a while. And it'll be going back to how it was before this summer came around.

Shea and i have both decided to live in the states for the first part of our marridge, with some events that have taken place over the past four months due to certain things, it's kind of made us think differently on where to live. For one thing it's a hell of a lot easier to spend all your cash up here than it is in the states, i mean things are almost twice expencive!! And they charge over 86.7 cents per liter... back home it's measured in the gallons @_@, and that's just what it's at currently, back a couple months it was over a dollar per liter.

Not to mention, we would have more backing up than what we would get here in canada, for my local family is really more than what's up here and at first we'd be living in a small town to be able to adjust to living together and having bills on our shoulder where i kind of think it would be a bit harder up here with how expencive things are.

I mean, shea came down to texas, we went and did things, went to California and he went back with a sword, and indiana jones hat among other things but i'm going back with stuffies won from an arcade... well... and along with an engagement ring, i suppose you could say that's the big thing ^_^. But i mean, that was bought and given by shea, when he was the one that bought his own sword XD.

And the crappy thing is i still need to get my family memebers souveniers x_x''''. Though, i do have some for my cousin's little boys so that's a plus. But anyways i should pretty much draw this part to a close.. just when it comes to it i think it would be more livable for starters to live in the states rather than up here, expecaly where shea i've noted can spend his cash before you could blink twice... I think it would be better to live in a smaller town where there really isn't anything like that to worry about. Besides i really see this as an oportunity to be able to become comfortable with living with eachother as man and wife.

Anyways... I should probably end this here for now and try to put some up later when i can get the chance.. probably a teary one for when i get back and have my own computer which i'm planning on getting for the fact that my parents computer died of old age crying i swear it's just sad news all around huh?

Okay, maybe it's just me but i've been here sense the 16th and dear god!!! I havn't been to a lot of places yet. Mainly just hanging around at his house getting to know his family and such. We've been to a couple malls for a movie (mr. and mrs. smith which was a cute movie XD) and then another day we went to one for some Inital D and man is that game is fun! Shea keeps telling me i'm addicted and i keep refusing to admit it XD. (And anyone out there that's talked to me on this subject know i'm not addicted right? ninja *nod nod*wink wink* 3nodding )

Anyway back to the size of the city. I swear, I thought my home city was decent size but the moment i realized that we were landing in Calgary i knew my home city was a small town in comparison. Now i might be exagerating but i bet you could fit 3 Amarillo's together and it still wouldn't make up when stacked against how many buildings and such this place accualy has!

Another cool thing about being up here is i can drink! And it's accualy legal!! It was rather nice when we were playing at the arcade Me, Shea and his younger brother Gav sat down and ordered a round of Smirnoff Ice and let me tell you that's one of the greatest things i've ever had XD.

Gav was also in a talent show tonight XD it was accualy pretty cool. I honestly thought that Gavin had done really well, his talent he did was singing two songs. I think though after the first song he got a bit nervous.But over all i think he did good ^^. I accualy got to dye his hair too! XD it was fun. Of course though it's a wash out (so we're hoping ninja ) but it was still like accualy applying hair color, the kind that's either permenant that wears out after a long period of time or whatever in that area. What was funny about it though is to be able to start from the bottom and work my way up i had to pin his hair up in different sections (Living with a hair dresser you tend to pick this stuff up..>.>'''). By the time he was through being pinned up and ready to apply the hair stuff he looked like a samurai with cinnamon buns almost on the top of his head XD. (Dont tell him i said that xd ) I think i gave him a scare when we first started sense he had a gulp you would have been able to hear close to the stairs which was only a few steps away.

Now, the hair it's self was alright XD i put it on the way it was supposed to and everything. We sat and waited for the timer to go off and when it did he was supposed to rinse his hair. I have no idea what the hell he did but a few minutes after he dissapeared into the bathroom he came back out with blue-ish purple lines going down his face and to the sides of his nose, down his neck and down both his back and chest XD. The back of his shoulder looked like he could have been hit by a semi-truck (at least that's what Shea said..) cause of the colors it made his shoulder looked as if it were completely bruised XD.

And that's just the beginning!! There was also the subject of the condition the bathroom was in on the first time i took a step into that room XD. The bathtub almost looked like something from a horror film! like the inside of the bathtub had the hair color streaked down the inside of the front of the bathtub. It wasn't just there either! It was on the wall tiles, the floor, the wall, the toilet and all over the shower stuff like the shampoo and things like that. It was really a sight to be seen, kinda makes me wish we got pictures just so you could get the idea of what i'm talking about here XD. But Gav protested and wouldn't let me take a picture of him with all the streaks of hair stuff going down his back and stuff XD it almost looked like something (in my opinion) from star trek or somethin' like that.

Anyway that's really about all that's going on around here, we've been enjoying a game called Jade Empire and some of the ones i brought with me. We've talked, played games and i'm succesfully teaching the two how to shuffle cards XD complete with the bridge. And hoping that some time soon i'll be able to find them little ribbons or something when they won't need my help and guidence anymore.... crying it'll be soo sad, they're some of my best students i've ever had *Sniff*Sniff*.... okay well they're the only students i've had XD but that's not the point... lol okay anyway i need to get off of here so Shea can write in his and if you read this babe...

^_^ I LOVE YOU!! ^_^

Hehehe anywayz i'll write again when i have more to put down. Untill then Au Revoir! (Like everyone speaks french up here... >.>'')

Ah finaly to be able to be back on the computer ^_^. Okay, so i've been online for a little over a week now but still! I've just been taking my time thinking about what to write on here XD.

Well Shea, my bf has been here sense like.. the 21st of June and has extended his plane ticket not once, but twice now! But all from the beginning till now still has to be said ^_^.

It should start the night before he had arrived here ^_^. That night my mom had gotten sick and my brother well... was being himself lol. We had cleaned on the house the entire time up untill mom went to bed, brandon was being cranky and stuff and went to bed also. I stayed up doing stuff till about 5am which what felt like 10 minutes after I had laid down my mom's cellphone rang... and guess who it was! XD I was soo out of it my first thought was "he's here already?" XD. But no, he was calling for the address for something or another. But anyway I passed out and woke up a little later when Shea called again to tell me he was in houston! Not to mention it was noon x_x'' so any little things that needed to be finished had to be done in a hurry for he was going to be there in around 4 hours!

After I had gotten around, finished cleaning up what was needed and got myself together I was just about on pins and needles sitting in the chair waiting for us to be able to leave. I wasn't nervous but I swear it was more like "come on come one!!! Can we go yet!?". Mom kept asking if I was nervous and stuff but man I was just not being able to wait to see my guy of whom I had been with almost 4 months and known for at least 7 if not 8 months.

Once we had finaly left the house and got to the airport we got up to where we figured the plane would let out. But upon asking we had heard it had alreadly landed but that it let out down stairs. So my mom and I had made it to the ground floor and just as we were getting down was when I had spotted him, wearing a red shirt, blue jeans and a jacket (which his mom made sure he would have so he wouldn't freeze.. but in texas.. it's quiet the opposit expecaly with this time of year) oh and a black baseball hat.

Anyway it was kind of like what you see in the movies XD. You had the slow run and the big hug that seemed to last forever with no words, no giggles just... hugging XD. It's kind of hard not to think about it when I hug him, at least the way we had that day. Then once we had finaly been seperated with a crow bar.... oh sorry XD just kiddin'! But really once we seperated from the hug and I let him breathe, my grandma had came in her own car and met up with us. She met Shea and we tried to find the elevator up to the 2nd floor of our airport which was where the cars had been parked sweatdrop .

From there we went home, dropped his stuff off, which it had been really hard not to look at him.. can you blame me? He's a hottie!! XD Anyway we went and ate at this restraunt we have called the cracker barrel.

Once we got back home and stuff settled down we ended up spending some time around in the living room, watching his home made movies and playing games and having to listen to my parents pull out the stories of my child hood... or at least the ones they could get from off the top of they're head (they didn't leave out too many though.... gonk not to mention what they havn't told yet they will... mostlikely in front of his parents while they all share such details... god why us? redface )

Anyway later on after playing games and stuff we ended up sneeking out the front door to enjoy the stars and such ^_^. I'll let your imaginations go from there but I must say, kissing is by far better than I would have ever imagined and my god is it addicting 4laugh whee . Once we got back inside we stayed up playing games and visiting till about 7am... Shea himself had been up for 4 days straight @_@... so in other words he crashed as did I just not quiet as bad as he had hehehehe.

But pretty much after that we didn't really go anywhere (lack of funds and such...). We really just hung around home and played games like Champions of Norrath,GT3, Guilty Gears (only once or twice though) and other stuff as well that I can't remember off the top of my head. While he was there I tried teaching him the card game canasta. He beat me his first try but then again I was focused more on teaching him the game rather than beating him >.>'' ninja .

Then my cousin came over and stayed a couple of days till he started acting funny but then again he just is a bit weird. But all that stuff is for another journal entry XD. Anyway we ended up playing Bullshit (Cheat, liars poker, bull crap you get the picture) more than anything else XD. But then again my brother was such a whiney butt there wasn't much fun in anything else stare .

Then after that and my cousin went home Shea and I got to find out my dad had vacation coming up, and had been asking about extending his airplane ticket so he could come along. Which kind of suprised me but hey! He got to stay and everything. So we ended up going to California and it was waaaaay cool! Because I hadn't ever been able to go off and do anything on my own. I was always expected to follow the family around doing whatever they wanted (which accualy would be what my dad would want to do).

The day we got to the parks hotel, Shea and I had set out on our own about 10 or 15 minutes after we had gotten up to the rooms and mom got to look over the package deal that they had found (internet or not I dunno XD). After getting to the elevator a couple who had been staying there a couple of days. They had been nice enough to show us the way to the monorail which wasn't but a couple minutes walk from the hotel which was pretty cool and was really nice when my sweetheart and I would end up playing Initial D till the arcade closed up.... but we only did that twice really XD. Second time was when we got the warnings mrgreen .

The first day though was awesome! When we got off the monorail we hit Space Mountain first off. Mainly because the little map they provide said it wouldn't be open till later this year. But come to find out it was the "official opening" instead so they were giving a preview of what they had done to the ride which standing in line for 55 minutes was completely worth it! XD We ended up running into some cosplayers and 3 of which we knew who they were! There had been a Duo from gundam wing, a Naruto character (I dunno who it'd be though...) and Citan from Xenogears! There had been two others but i dont quiet remember where they're from >.>'''. Then we ended up talking to the people in line that had been behind us so it made the line go all the quicker. Got tips (Though we didn't get the chance to take them..) and a really nice visit. And really where else in the world can you really do that with complete strangers?

I have to admit the last 10 minutes of the line was the funniest. With Shea as steady as a 8 year old getting a new toy, the line moving quicker, and my own excitement which was kinda pushed to a side sense watching the cutie next to me proved to be more entertaining. The final results were? The ride was awesome!! Better than what I remember and we ended up riding it again later on.

Then we were gonna leave to go find something for lunch other than pizza but then while we were passing the Star tours ride we caught it at 15 minutes wait XD which isn't bad at all so I dragged Shea in and we took the tour got in a bunch of mischif but helped save the day and all without leaving the theme park XD.

After that we went and decided just to go for pizza sense it was closer. And my god food is expencive at the happiest place on earth rolleyes . We know why too it's happy for all those people rolling in the millions and millions they rake in probably on food alone >.>... lol just kiddin' anyway two pizza's and two drinks ended up coming to 17 something... x_x'''

We went to the arcade to see if they had Inital D and yup just as Shea had predicted they did have the amazing, wonderfull arcade racing game Inital D XD (I'm not addicted Shea!! blaugh Okay maybe a little... ninja ). Anywayz! We met up with my parents as he was getting the cash to play the games and got the instructions on meeting up for dinner at this place that had a show and lunch at the same time. Which was pretty fun depsite my food got cold after being sent back up after getting my and Shea's food and just sitting down to get right back up to stand in line for two cokes mad .

Anyway back to the arcade. From there we headed for New orlands square to ride the Pirates of the Caribbean ride which was a lot of fun XD expecaly at first after me humming a banjo tune (one I recall hearing on the Motel 6 commercials long long ago XD) which my sweetheart didn't seem to appriciate me adding a little more depth to the feeling of being back in hillbilly land XD.

After that we made our way to adventure land and we rode the Indiana Jones ride and then made a fast walk over to the golden horse shoe restraunt for that show. Afterwards once we got out of there we went to ride the Pirates of the Caribbean again before going down a little more for the haunted mansion. But before we really got farther than the entrance of this Nitemare Before Christmas store there was this quartet. They were really great, even had the crowd singing along with the songs by the time they were through. It was funny though they were tossing the bead necklaces that you get if you were really in new orleans for the Mardi Gras though I didn't have to flash anyone to get them XD.

Once they had stopped Shea and I got our picture taken with them and then were back on our way to the haunted mansion which is always a fun place to go XD. They changed the madam leotta's room where as before the crystal ball laid on the table which no one's been able to figure out how they got the image of the "ghosts" head into the ball but now they have it where it floats about the room but the odd thing is we didn't see any strings or anything holding it up not even shadow for somthing holding it up from the bottom. It was an awesome effect!

When we were freed from that little event, though we swear those traveling ghosts are real XD lol we had a weird experience at the hotel we stayed at when we stayed two days for the universal studio's park which was a bit of a let down. The best thing there really was the shrek show.. but that's for later XD.

We caught the train in new orleans and rode it around the park till we got to Tomarrow land and ate at a little fast serve and i held down a table while Shea got the food. While we were sitting there and eating there was a concert type thing (which the girl was under dressed even for disney.. >.>''). But once we were through and the concert was still going we decided to make a break for Space Mountian to ride again XD.

After that gass we didn't meet Jar Jar or Boss Nass unfortuently but we did end up playing Inital D till the park closed and we almost missed the last monorail and at that time we didn't know that you could get to the entrance of both the california park and disney land by walking about a 20 minute walk (Probably 30 for us concidering that later on our feet hurt so bad we had to sit to take "breaks" wink .

Anyway we made it back to the room got ready for bed and relaxed untill we felt ready to sleep er well.. with my parents they kept reminding us how we needed to go to bed. But what made that day so cool is we kept hitting stuff just right with the Space Mountain and Indiana Jones ride being the only ones we had to wait a while for. But all and all it was and awesome day and i've probably left out a ton of stuff (oh i remember one! Shea had his first Churro XD which they're just cinnamon sticks with a soft almost doughie like center. Not to mention when he came here it was his first time for queso XD lol)

Okay now i've probably talked to much and Shea's getting bored and trying to give me hickies which he's been unsuccessful every time he's tried XD but the funny thing is any time I playfully try to give him on he always gets marks mrgreen . Well I should probably shut up now and I guess i'll leave it at this for right now and write more when I get the chance. Catch everyone laterz!

Sierra

Okay ladies and gents! XD lmao yeah yeah pull back the red curtain and everything for tonight we have quiet a variety of things i'd like to get out. First of them all is.. I Love ya shea smile heart heart biggrin redface heart !! ^_^ More than any of the things you could EVER possibly say to try to outdo me.. with sprinkles and a cherry on top! XD

Okay now that's outta my system on with the bad stuff so i can end with the good xd . Oh and it's also good to know that after only a day of pickiting and such the demands on being able to clothe our nakid avis, we put our pickets away to save for a rainy day ^_^

In other news, for the past two weeks i've been stuck through cleaning hell.. my parents are getting back together (hey wait, wasn't i just saying they were starting to go through a divorce not too many entries back? ah well no your eyes arn't playing tricks on you.) and ever sense then my dad's been here every day almost with the exception of this weekend that i got the house all to myself.

The phone got shut off due to a high phone bill. -whistles innocently-. I havn't the slightest idea why that would be.. hehehe twisted but yes while i take responcibility as to why the phone is off, my mom could have done things that she didn't. Like call to talk it over with the phone company.

So now i'm without phone and each day my parents last week went off, waking me up at like 9am to clean A ROOM all by myself when this entire house. So far i was stuck with the dinning room, living room, laundry room and my parents bathroom! And ever sense this happened with my parents my mom suddenly started to care about having the house cleaned before my friend that we had originaly planned to move down here to be able to accualy move. When not more than two weeks before all this had my mom told me she didn't care if the kitchen and dinning room were a mess. Just as long as the room that would be used by my friend was clean so she could move in.

But now with everything she wants to have the house cleaned. And the funny thing of it all is i TRIED to get her to help me clean up that bedroom so i could go on to clean the bathroom with in it and such. And that room had used to be my moms before a lot of family crap came up. But i couldn't get my mom to help me in the slightest of ways! She'd always skip out on me when she had a day off or the time to help to go stay with some guy and then tell me about it later like i was really interested.

I dont really think my mom had any idea the sort of stress she was putting on me with all of that. Because it was all she talked about and it was always about another guy each time i talked with her because she could never make up her mind.

Anyway well out of all of this with the housework and s**t i was getting left with even though it was my parents that wanted to have the house clean and presentable to guests more than i personaly did sense a lot of the stuff that had the rooms screwed over, had nothing to do with me. I did things from time to time sense i would be the cause of it. Like clean up around the computer desk sense it's where i spend most of my time and such. But my brother is the one that controls the living room and my mom the bedroom, bathroom in here and the computer desk when she was home. When i'm not on the main computer i'm probably on the laptop's internet. I dont really do anything anywhere else..

so it pissed me off my parents were going out having fun and s**t while leaving me here to clean it all up with little to no help from my brother and that was when he was out of school. This whole thing with my dad coming back has been taken too far to fast. He shouldn't be back in this house for one.. he's already opened up his own section on our computer (and we run with XP..) downloaded and deleted s**t that i did or didn't want on/off the computer. All this as if he owns it when it was accualy my mom that signed for the payments.

Then when he ******** the dsl over in an attempt to see if the phone jack (that for one reason or another went out and not because the phone company turned it off..) would work he tells me all this bullshit of needing filters for the dsl and having them to all the phonelines. When we had taken them all off even before the damn divorce thing started. And it was because the DSL line has it's own, personalized line that has no dial tone. It doesn't need to be filtered through the phoneline because it's seperate from everything else. When i try to explain that to him i cant even get into explaining why it doesn't need to before he cuts me off acting like i dont know what i'm talking about like he did before all this divorce s**t started. So that in it's self proves the man hasn't changed in all the ways he says he has.

Well in all of this s**t going on, my friend and i came up with a new plan. Instead of her moving here I had been seriously concidering on moving to where she is. getting away from here, having doors of oportunities open up and hopefully be able to not have the stress get from living here. I mean the stress is so bad i had my right arm break out in little rashes like when a person has Exema they're arms, legs, face whatever it effects makes the person itch like crazy, and it's like it just doesn't matter what you do you can never get rid of that itch. Well i had spots down my right arm and on the back of my left thumb. All of it which is something i havn't had in YEARS 2 or 3 to be the most!

So yeah, i'm gonna be moving up to ohio hopefully within the next couple of months and be able to get more used to the outside world than i am now. I also think being out there i can be more of myself than what i was raised to be here at home. Isn't it sad? You have to act like your the old person you once had been around your parents while your inwardly screaming to be truthful in it all? With no worries?

Okay, moving along! There's some really REALLY Good news (just as good if not better than the moving.)! Near the end of june on the 21st my Boyfriend of three months (well at that time will be four months), Shea will be coming down to meet me! ^_^ Oh god i cannot even begin to describe how it feels to know it's less than a month away now!! Nothin's gonna stop me from meeting him, i'll purely go through hell if i have to.. Just these few months have been completely agonizing to live through knowing that something that's going to change my life forever will be starting in the end of June.

All my life i've been waiting for something to finaly kick my a** into gear, something to modivate me to do something with my life. And everything finaly seems to be coming together. And when it's all talked about i know it's not something that's a "Maybe this will happen.." It all will! Some way some how it will all work out to the best and then hopefully by the time i'm done with schooling and such in Ohio i'll be able to move to or at least closer to Canada, where Shea is. Making it easier on both our parts to see eachother. Because i know for a fact i'm gonna die when he will have to go home.. for i love the time i get with my sweetheart and i cherish the phone calls we get. So i dont think words will ever decribe how i'll feel when i'll finaly get to meet him face to face heart ^_^.

OH!! biggrin biggrin biggrin And i got to talk to his mom the other night!! OH my god it was sooo cool!! I mean i had been thinking that i'd probably not get to talk to her untill like.. the day i can finaly get up there to meet his family right? Well i was talking with him on the phone and stuff and he had told me the night before that if she had gotten in early enough he'd have her get on the other phone so we could talk! Well after waiting a while for her to finish up what she needed to for a church thing she helps with (from what i gather that is) she was finaly able to get on to talk for a few minutes. I gotta admit though i was kind of nervous.. I hadn't ever talked with any of my bf's mom's before. And figuring how she seemed to think we're moving things a little too fast and such i wasn't quiet sure if she'd like me.. though i'm pretty sure i probably talked too much sweatdrop . It was funny though! Cause we ended up gaining up on Shea xd .

I have talked with his younger brother, gavin, off and on before. And it's so cute! He calls me sis! XD It kind of amazes me though i mean it did take a little getting used to concidering the only one that called me that was my own little brother xd . But i find it adorable! And his excuse for calling me that? "Well it's gonna happen anyway" XD hehehehe and omg you get Shea and him on the phone.. oooooh man you better prepair yourself for "The club" Talk and transformers and and umm... oh yeah Initial D stuff XD. ((God i'm gonna be marrying into a stranger family than my own! xd But i love it! hehehehe))

Not to mention their pickings on a guy they know named Evans. I had the.. unpleasentries to meet him and talk with him a few times. A strange person that evans is. He has a thing for foxes (which is rather questionable..), he conciders himself as a fox pup even.. Then he's just a b*****d from what Shea has told me about him. Which pisses me off for some of the s**t he pulls. I'm rather glad i dont talk to him anymore XD for the fact of how he talks about Shea and everything. Has me to the point of thinking if he ever pulled any s**t like that while i'm up there... i'd be happy to kick him in a very certain place to ensure him not getting any thing.. (human or... umm anyway yeah..) pregnant.. >.>. Though not that it would matter... i personaly think he's a club member in desigse (sp i know). whee

Now look what you did Shea! XD -sighs- well...i think i've said enough here. Probably too much..lol And i think ill end it at that for tonight. Till i write again! Love you baby!! ^_^

~*Brandi*~

Okay! i'm joining my friend RamseyMinamono in the rebellion against the evil forces that lurk within gaia and have made it where we cant clothe ourselfs!!

After a day and a half of not being able to get dressed after gaia had stripped Ramsey's clothes leaving only grey hair and boxers, I have decided to get nakie with my dear friend and protest in this outragous attempt to keep gaian's from they're clothes! So far Ramsey has three picketers that have stripped ourselfs to join hand in hand to get our clothes back!

The participaters are:
Guren
Delita-san
and myself!

If you would like to make the list strip of the clothes that gaia has evily stuck you with and pm me and i'll be happy to stick you in the list! And on with the ranting of wanting our choice to wear our clothes!

lmao okay had to get that outta my system lmao. I've known of her sense i was about uh.. 15? and i've ALWAYS loved her music! Well.. i found out yesterday she had a cd out in 2003 that i missed! crying but what's cool is that it's some of her most popular songs and three new ones ^_^ and i've accualy got to hear two of them but i'm DYING to hear the other one! hehehe there hasn't been many if any of her songs that i havn't heard. And what's funny? SHES FROM CANADA! lmao! Take a guess who else is from canada wink wink

Speaking of canada boy, omg i have never been so happy with some one so fast and for so long! omg omg omg!! there has NOT been a day that i first talked with him on the phone that we havn't talked with eachother over the phone! NOT ONE DAY! hehehe it's sooo amazing i swear to god i dont know if i'm gonna be able to wait till this summer. There was talk about him coming down for his spring break (next week), and even though his dad was going to pay for it, he still wont be able to come down crying For the small fact that he cant come over without a passport.. Which sucks completely.

Moving up there this winter will be interesting.. out of one snowy world into a blizzard i'm sure, but i mean at least i wont be facing it alone, and he knows how to face it and all so he can be giving me tips. ^_^

It's so funny, i'm sitting here drinking on my moms drink she left when she went to go visit her "bf" and she just kinda.. left it with no one guarding it twisted xd hehehehe... omg i think i'm hyper.. hehe i'm moving to a song that you would think was a pop song.. but it's "here with me" by dido, and it's not really a headbanging song >.>'''

OH!! Okay, cause of the fact that we thought that shea was going to be able to come down for spring break we had exchanged our anniversary gifts right? Well, i had been planning for like a week on getting him a romani jacket and a Chain wallet. OMG he loved them! ^_^ and he looks sooo cool hehe. ANYWAY! that's not the point of this part the point was HE GOT ME MY DRAGON DRESS! eek eek biggrin biggrin xd xd heart heart heart heart heart I was in SOO much shock! it was sooo perfect! i swear to god i couldn't have asked him to have gotten me anything more than that! ^_^

Now i'm listening to " I'll be" by edwin mcain ^_^ i love his songs.. though i only know two of them hehe sweatdrop Anyways! umm i'm just random babbling here and my baby's on so i'm just gonna leave it here ^_^

LOVE YA CUTIE! ^_^

-Brandi-

I had an excelent day, i was able to talk to my mom about the guy that i now call mine. She was great with it and she was talking to me about her whole thing. She went to lubbock this afternoon and i told her before that before she even stayed down there, like over night or whatever that i had to meet him first. Is that truely asking to much? I've never met him.. he sounds like a nice guy but this is my mother after all.

Well i called just a moment ago after getting off the phone with shea and come to find out she's staying there!!! Why the hell is it so hard for her to understand that i have my reasons for wanting to meet him! And to top it off there's nothing here i know how to cook so i dont know what the ******** i'm going to do. I cant call anyone, i cant do anything!! And then she doesn't take what i say seriously, she wont let me talk to her when she's on the phone with him but she tells me everything later. She tells me to "shh" and s**t when all i want to do is meet him! WHY IS THAT SO WRONG!?

She doesn't care to how i feel about the whole thing, she just does it. Just because she's my mother does not mean that she can just go do this s**t without the okay of others! She might be a grown up but my god the divorce between my parents arnt even settled!!!! My mother has changed so much from when she was with my dad, some of those things i liked. But this whole thing now i'm begining to hate. I'd never do that to her if she told me she wanted to meet shea first! Why the hell does she think that i'm not going to be upset by this? I swear i feel like ripping my hair out or breaking something and cry in the same moment. My day had gone so well untill just then. I dont understand her.. not at all.

GOD HE HAS THE CUTEST VOICE!! hehehe had to get it outta my system sweatdrop . I got off the phone with him a lil while ago and i dont know but i get the feeling his mom likes the idea of me being from texas lol ^_^'''

Hearing her over his cellphone was kinda funny, i've never heard a mom act like that twards something like this sweatdrop . Though i cant say it wasn't nice, at least there's hope she wont hate me if i get to meet her right? And from what i could tell she seemed pretty nice so i'll have my fingers crossed till we get that far. 3nodding

Umm lets see this guy is just so cool! I get the feeling we could talk about anything and everything.. another thing i wanted in a relationship. i mean could this get any better? hehe okay yeah i think it could if we were able to meet eachother IRL some time hopefully not to long though.

It's amazing to find that in his journal he spoke of how he felt and everything and i'm just like.. wow.. hehe to know that i can make a person that happy, and feel the same way from just seeing him come online, or waiting anxiously for his phonecall.. or for him just to answer the phone. He's so sweet and he's easy to talk to.. i felt kind of bad lastnight cause i felt like i was the one talking a lot, at least more than my share. He makes me laugh, though it doesn't take much to get me to.

Also.. to me it's kind of funny, i wander if we're ever going to tell eachother over the phone that we love eachother. lol we do that online, and its easy and it's how i feel. But i think on the phone is going to take it to a whole other level. To hear it from one another the way they would say it in person.. and no telling how that would be. After a kiss, in eachothers arms and such.. i mean it just takes it to a completely new level that i can barely even imagin how great that will be, to hear him tell me that he loves me.. And i to him.

All this talking about phone conversations and all makes me wander when i'll get to hear his voice again. Oh i hope it's not a long time hehe i've really enjoyed talking to him on so many different things. Well i think i've made this long enough, on love and what not ^_^'' okay all love but whatcha gonna do sue me? lol ^_^