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i cant beleive it! i just got my first kiss and i didnt miss like my friends said i would! in your faces!! lol i have turned nocturnal again and i have to stay up all day so ill go to sleep tonight. im going back to school tomorrow. its going to be so boring because maria the psycotic one in our group moved away to columbus. crying
we will all miss her dearly but i can still talk to her over the internet and the phone. blaugh so thats all i have to say now. ill write more later.
 Saphon_the_innocent_child · Tue Jan 02, 2007 @ 02:43pm · 0 Comments |
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more lyrics blaugh
I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore
Without a life vest, I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'
Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be
I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)
Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space
I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove that I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
So thought no end my need to fall
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean, end it all
[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Saphon_the_innocent_child · Sun Dec 31, 2006 @ 05:10am · 0 Comments |
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yet again ive been done wrong by the guy i like, now he wont even talk to me. i give up. if he just thinks that im going to let him into my pants hes got another thing coming. im not going to ever flirt with another guy again. ive been hurt too many times. from now on im just going to get to know a guy really well before i even try to imagine what it would be like with him. After having my first two boyfriends dump me for each other, then have one cheat on me, then have a guy flirt with me and make me feel like i finally found someone who really likes me then just start acting like i dont exist what little hope ive got is gone. hell ill be lucky to even have a husband before im fifty-nine years old. im just going to stick to my boring little life from now on. i dont need a guy to have a life.
Saphon_the_innocent_child · Sun Nov 19, 2006 @ 12:49pm · 1 Comments |
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im depressed again. i just found out that the first guy that ever flirted with me has had a girlfriend. i would really like to beat him right now but im not like that. i could also tell his girlfriend that he was flirting with me while he was still dating her but that would ruin their relationship and as much as i hate him right now i wouldnt do that to him. my friends were a real help though. i really dont need him to live my life. im never speaking to him again unless i tell him off.
Saphon_the_innocent_child · Sat Oct 21, 2006 @ 03:48am · 0 Comments |
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ive got some poems i found. I didnt write them myself though. I like them.
when skys are clear, expect the cloud
in darkness, wait the coming light.
whatever be thy fatetoday
remember, even this shall pass away
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tis a little journey,this we walk.
hardly time for murmurs-time for talk
yet we learn to quarrel, and to hate.
afterward regret it, when to late.
now and then tis sunshine,sometimes dark,
sometimes pain and sorrow, leave their mark.
yet we walk side by side
where so many others, lived and died.
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How often we neglect a friend
When living but should death appear
The penitent heart is quick to send
a wreath to lay upon his bier.
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Death takes our loved ones-we are bowed in grief.
For whom?
Are we not selfish?
Amourner weeps for himself,
The dead know nought of sorrow.
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An infant-wailing in nameless fear,
A shadow, perchance, in the quiet room.
Or the hum of an insect flying near,
Or the screech owls cry in the outer gloom.
A little child on the sun-checked floor,
A broken toy and a tear stained face,
A young life clouded, a young heart sore,
And the great clock,time, ticks on a pace.
A maidenweeping in bitter pain,
Two white hands clasped on an aching brow.
A blighted faith, a fond hope slain,
A shattered trust, and a broken vow.
A matron holding a baby's shoe,
The hot tears gather and fall at will,
On the knitted ribbon of white and blue,
For the foot that wore it is cold and still.
An aged woman upon her bed,
Worn and wearied, and poor and old,
Longing to rest with the happy dead,
And thus the story of life is told.
Where is the season of careless glee?
where is the moment that holds no pain?
Life has its crosses from infancy,
Down to the grave-Are its hopes in vain?
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Thats all ive got time for now. Ill write more later. (that last one is my fave! whee )
Saphon_the_innocent_child · Fri Oct 06, 2006 @ 09:51pm · 0 Comments |
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My fave song!!! whee
verse1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so i don't loose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted this
(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
(Verse 2)
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinoins on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so ******** far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
(Verse 3)
And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I found out I can't make it go away, just make it stop
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How could you did this to me?"
(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you, for you, for you, for you...
Can you guess what it is? wink
Saphon_the_innocent_child · Wed Oct 04, 2006 @ 11:01pm · 0 Comments |
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I learned how to flirt!!!!!!! Up until now i was clueless about how to flirt.
(my friends: Its about @#$%ing time!!! Me:Its not my fault! crying ) Well thats pretty much all thats happened to me. bye!1 whee
Saphon_the_innocent_child · Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 10:31pm · 0 Comments |
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