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I totally give up melissa wins.

I try my hardest to show Kyle that im something else than what he sees....I wanna feel him love me like i love him.

I try to compete with the competition but someone else got his heart. Will I always be in 2nd place or will have a chance?

Nothing i do ever pleases him...maybe if i turn my back than everything will be easier than having my heart brake everytime i see them together. But i cant just let him walk away when i think i have a chance. Every word we say to eachother are mostly hurtful words. I cant say that im over him that would be a lie. Even if i made a vow i will have my fingers crossed behind my back like a little girl.

I didn't know what will happened when I walk through the math class doors. I sat down in my seat and minded my business then u walked through the door all i could smell was B.O and could see the most cockiest mouth ever i didn't like you at first but then i got to know you. I still remeber the first words u said to me "are u sticking ur middle finger at me". i started to flirt with you in math talked to u and always started a convo with you. I thought no one noticed but then someone got the feeling that i liked you and of course it was Aaron i started to denay it everytime he said that but then my friend Megan asked me and i had to tell her on the weekend in october she told you that i liked you. i was so nervous in math i didn't say anything. In August i asked u out but u said no i was crying for ever bec i liked you alot. You said that i was too good for you and told me that u did drugs and everything but i didn't care at all and it was sweet how u made me feel good at the same time.

I could search for ever for what was before my eyes it was like no other it was like nothin i planned but when i got my heart around it it slipped right through my hands. Here with you i can feel it like no other feeling when i close my eyes and start to dream i can see it. I would love to go for a midnight walk with you, feel that morning kiss in ur arms.
When crashing through the madness and no one is there to help me not sure who i am supposed to be, caugh up in the darkness its ur hand thats leading me but u just dont realise it you always bring me back to solid ground.

Your sweetest smile on any night with that tender touch i would love to feel