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Check out this mod our school team created for UT 2004. A 60 person team assembled the mod over a course of 6 months, and every character, weapon, and asset in the game is completely our own. It’s called Mythos, and it centers around a battle between classic Greek and Norse Gods for control of humanity. The battleground is a giant onslaught map where you jump from Valhalla and its frozen plains below to the idyllic Greek countryside and the golden halls of Olympus. You can pick from 8 characters from both sides. Zeus, Artemis, Hades, and Apollo battle for the Greek Gods against Thor, Odin, Skadi, and Tyr. Unique weapons include Thor’s Hammer Mjolinr, Skadi’s Axe, The Dagger Gun, Zeus’ lightning bolt, and Artemis’ crossbow. The mod supports up to 16 players and is available immediately for download at the following sight. Download it today and start conquering.

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Death to Gaia journal! domokun

So I just found something out... I feel horribly betrayed, and I'm wondering if I'm just overreacting or if I have a right to feel the way I do.

I'll leave out the sappy details at first so you can draw an objective conclusion and you guys tell me if I'm crazy or if you understand why I'd feel the way I do and if you'd feel the same way.
I had a boyfriend. While we were still together, we were playing World of Warcraft. We formed a guild which we got pretty close with the people in the guild and we had a guild barbeque at my ex's house. This one girl came who I considered to be a friend. We got along pretty well in person, I'd say. We talked in game. I told her all my happy stories about him and me. The first time we met. Our first date. Our first kiss. So obviously, she knew how in love I was with this guy and she responded with the typical "awww how sweet" bullshit.
5+ years after our relationship and a couple months after this guild barbeque party, we broke up. I had some suspicions that him and this girl were seeing each other. I saw her car on his driveway once when I dropped something off. He accidentally calls me by her name. Little things. I shrugged them off.. I thought she'd be a more respectable person than that. Today... it was confirmed. They're dating. They've been seeing each other since a month after my ex and I split up. We've been split up for about 5 months now.


How do I feel about the situation?
I'm insanely jealous. I'm incredibly infuriated. I'm beyond hurt. Backstabbed is an understatement. I was trembling when I found out.
I'm glad to know my 5 year relationship meant at least 1 month to him... Here I am, 5 months later and I'm still crying over the ********. It hurts that I had no impact on him. It hurts that I'm just... a sloppy leftover to him, when he was the world to me. He meant the world to me. My first date. My first boyfriend. My first kiss. My first everything. It hurts to know that I meant absolutely nothing to him even after 5 years. It hurts that he'll always have a piece of me that I can NEVER have back. It hurts that I don't hold any kind of tie to him at all.
I guess I'm okay with the fact that he's seeing someone new. I know he's not bound to me anymore.......... but he's seeing this girl... that I spilled my guts to. Someone that knows how much in love I was with him. She knows about our first meeting. She knows about our first date. She knows about our first kiss. I can't even begin to express the amount of disgust I feel towards her right now. How can anybody do that? How can anybody know all those intimate times and then prance in and make some of her own with the same guy?
Is it wrong of me to feel this much bitterness towards her? Is it wrong to feel this much disgust towards her? Is it wrong for me to hate her?
Am I right to feel backstabbed? Am I the only one that feels this way? Am I the only one that feels that friends shoudln't date friends ex's?
Granted.. we weren't the best of friends.. but for ******** god's sakes.. she knows about a lot of our firsts. I explained in detail. She knows.

So please.. if anybody reads this.. please give me your opinions. I don't care if I know you or not. I just need someone to tell me if what I'm feeling is justified or am I overreacting?