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yea its true todays ******** up. had one of those feelings that i shoulda never left my house n i was right. how is it that the inteligent pplz never are the ones who nare listened to. we just get ******** used and kicked around. i get asked to come hang out n gee was talked to for bout five minutes then i felt like i was just there for the hell of it. totally ignored- empty... many many days i go "hang out" turns out like s**t. i have three true friends in this ******** up place i live that can actually understand me. there are so few of us that we should get what we put out. at least we try to live but get shuned down. pplz who commit suicide are either too dumb to relize or to smart to realize what they are doing. ppl in general are ignorant and evil takers of our life force. the person is decent.. not all but yea you get the drift.... wow first long thing i posted ever..... sry for the ranting but i'm just so tired anymore and show how i feel more n more. sadly the pain i feel will be with me forever. i wont die young.. dont ask how i know but it is a strong feeling. life just brings more pain and burdens yet it forces me to go through it all.
~Ivey