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ok! well, it's been two seasons...and...yeah. i'm going to community college, which is ok...i guess. i got a job! i work with puppies how awesome!! and i got a car! beware of Edna the Purple Beast for she likes to speed like whoa!!

so, all-an-all, i guess life is ok. college is just like high school. well, for me. i guess. unfortunitly i lost credit for one class cause i never showed up redface the teacher reminded me of my mom's ex-husband (aka "a*****e" wink . i am so glad that they finally got divoraced, except for the fact that the a*****e is being a total a*****e now. trying to take all of mom's moneys and stuff. douche face he is!

i heart working with puppies! they are all so adorable! and love to give kisses, oh boy do they love to give kisses. i just hope that every pup that goes home gets treated better then how they got treated in the kennels. they get toys and food and water and stuff here, but there's so many of them that it's hard to give them all equal attention. i'll admit that i have favorites, but i try to pet and talk to all the pups.

tay, i'm done.

so....yeah.

i'm bored.

i got 37 days left of school. then i graduate...it's kinda scary. i hope i can get everything done in time and pass all my classes.

um...i hate my advanced drawing teacher because he doesn't teach us anything. he's just like "draw!" and i do...but i don't draw realistically like he likes. anyways, i'm bored with this entry already...see ya

so...yeah. right now i just want to hit rewind and start life over. i would of gotten it right...probably. well, it's march...and i've been rejected from my school of choice...i can't find a job, and the one that i interviewed for didn't happen...i don't want to go to community college! i want to go to a university and be among the smart people (nothing against community college, just not my style i guess) and be with my Daemon and my other friends. i'm hoping that the university i speak of will reconsider me after i take the ACT's...which i know i should of done a long time ago. i'm use to things being given to me and working for things is...kinda foreign i guess. i wish i had the motivation to work hard in school and get awesome grades. because i know i am that smart and i know i can. i have no motivation though. when i was in band i had...some motivation there because i wanted to win/go to nationals. i think it's that i was involved and i liked what i did. then why am i on the verge of failing my zen class? i love that class! dammit. and drawing...why am i FAILING that? i want to be an artist...but i work at artist pace, meaning very slow. it's just starting to bother me now i guess because Daemon got into the university, and a lot of my other friends got into the same one. it's not that i couldn't of gotten in...hell, if i got in on acedemic probation i'd probably piss myself.
i just want to be with Daemon and get a clean slate. i need a change of enviroment i think. i feel worthless when i'm told i can't do something when i know that, if i had actually tried harder i could of. i don't care half the time. except about Daemon and not having a fetus grow inside of me eek . i know i should care about myself more, i'm very self-sacrificing...if it'll make someone else happy, then i'd be happy. i don't know anymore. i know what i want. i know exactly where i want to be and what i want to do with my life. it's just hard waiting. my day-dreams are so vivid of how the future will be, and i get so caught up in that that i forget about the present. i can't focus on anything in the now. nothing. zip-o. nada. i don't understand the politics of how to get a job...which might be a reason. but then again in my living on your own class, i got an A on the "how to fill out a job application/do a interview" test. well, i guess that kinda helped me. i did get an interview...but i saw her notes and it said "very nervous" and "very shy"...it's an excuse but the place i was applying at had a bunch of little kids crawling everywhere and i get nervous in those kinda situations. i worry their going to fall or something. plus i couldn't concentrate because of the noise...probably something the lady noticed...

in summary: i have no job, no car, no money, no future...and i'm no longer in the band

freakin! my dog bite my finger! she's just a puppy...but she's full of energy. whee! she's my Midget. her real name is Stella, and she's a Labradoodle. and yet...i think she's actually part gazelle...part alligator. she's funny. she'll clap her jaws together when she isn't getting enough attention. i love her!

word! i'm an alumni! yay! party!!

so we have our annual band fundraiser at school and we perform and junk...well, tonight was the last show and i got my rose and people clapped and stuff. cause i'm soooooo cool. word.

anyways...yeah, that's it. Super Bowl with Daemon tomorrow!

yo! i turned 18 a couple weeks ago. so i'm happy bout that...also it was christmas and i got sweet stuff. word.

Daemon forgot to get me something for my birthday...so i was upset...but we went to Hot Topic and he got me some sweet earrings. yeah, i got piercings, wanna fight about it? scream

ugg...i got finals in school next week, which blows...but then classes are over for the semester and i get my new classes and am just tha tmuch closer to graduation.

yeah i wanted to see what the template would look like. i guess it's ok. anywhose, i'm Ireska...well, not really, but i'm gonna use my gaian name in place of my name cause of sick-o interent stalker/rapist people... eek

actually just cause i'm cool like that... xd

i'm 17, almost 18. my boyfriend is Daemon Marcelius. and i like pasta. oh! sometimes i draw...but normally anime, i'm out of practice at the moment though...so please don't tell me my pictures suck. it's a drawing slump.

other stuffs...hmm...i love my boyfriend very much. he's so good to me. i'd probably die without him...it's weird cause he's my first real boyfriend, and we've been together about a year and 3 months...i feel bad about stuff a lot of the time because i'll still "flirt" with other guys or think about them. such as, there is a guy...and i have some um...history with him, from before Daemon, and i'll still be like "ooo...Other Guy looks nice today... 3nodding " so, Daemon, if you're reading this...i'm sorry i think about Other Guy...you know whom i speak of...things'll be better now that band is over cause i won't see him around anymore.

oh yeah...i guess i should say i'm in a marching band. well, i've said it in posts...so i guess i'll tell you. i play clarinet for the plymouth-canton educational park marching band (PCMB). woot woot. if you don't know who we are, we're pretty good. 10th in the nation this year. but i'm done with it now...cause it was my senior year. so...rox on alumni!

i heart domokun

um...yeah. hi. journals are fun.