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What is going on with everyone? I don't get it. Why is everyone so emotional as of late. The whole relationship thing isn't working. Trust is being lost. WHat the hell? This has to be the worst summer yet the best i've had. Maybe the most confusing summer. I have lost three friends in which you know, what i don't know what we ever had in common. I've made many more friends and i've even manage to get other's significant others wanting to kill me. I've found a new friend, maybe not a friend but new person I guess you could call it inside me that i didn't know was there. Someone said to me that it was the bad girl in me. Well you know what i'm really likeing this bad girl. She's blunt straight forward and not scared anymore. Before I was scared and Lost but didn't show it. Well now I have nothing to be scared of, no one holding me back. I do what i want when I want. And all that other jazz.
What's wrong with people in general? I mean insecurites really mess others up. They ruin everything. EVERY GOD DAMN THING!!!!! ********!!!! You know what I want to say to a bunch of people ******** you and your close mindedness. NO really you know who you are and what i'm saying. Life's short walk on the wild side for a bit and don't be afraid. Being afraid of not being pleasing enough, not good enough, not accepted enough, that's what really screwed me up before. NOw i'm free, not like free hiding free like before but truely free. If I knew it was this easy before I would have done it then.
Go ahead say i'm being a b***h and what not. Yes i may be being mean to those who know what i'm talking about. BUt it's about time people opened your eyes. Your really being closed minded and it's really annoying me. Okay so and so doesn't like you it's not the end of the world. Pick yourself up and move on they were not that great from the beginning if they didn't see the "SPECIAL" in you that is there. Screw them it's there loss. Move on, get over and stop hanging on to the past. Move forward. God i'm glad that out, now moving on...
Okay let's see what next. Don't be so hidden. It never helped anything and you can see that now. SO let it out or it will destroy you from the inside out. Look what it's doing to her. You say your the whole problem, but its the things that you hide that's the problem. Maybe not hiding it from her but from others who may be able to help you. Just ******** TELL ME ALREADY WILL YOU! STOP HIDING FROM ME! I see it's there so let it out so i can help you. Depressive people really need to just stop and look at the picture from the outside. YOUR GOING TO SHATTER IF YOU DON'T LET SOMEONE PROTECT YOUR GLASS EXTERIOR! You glass and your protector is on vacation far away, let the ones close to you protect you till your with one another again. Where is the TRUST that we have? You run, hide, and expect us to comfort you from the otherside of the room without getting to close to you. NO BLANKET FOR YOU IF YOU DON'T COME CLOSER!