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stare i hate people...like my ex boyfriend...but not like my boyfriend...hehehehe domokun rawr..... oooohhhh....audioslave.....yay.... twisted

it is 4:33 in the ******** morning.......i cant sleep...well..if i took some tylonel pm (im not sure how to spell it)...but! we dont have any...only daytime...i cant sleep...blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah...and im not even tired..... domokun ive got scenes from ace ventura pet detective going through my head....and from the lion king.....gosh...im retarded! oh well........i probably wont go to sleep until.......................my sister leaves for work...which is in an hour....my little sister is on the phone...so that doesnt help, she also has the ******** tv on...i hate trying to sleep with the tv on......................god shes a 13(almost 14) talking to her boyfriend who is a month older than me...hes 17...and they are talking about him eating her out....i hate it....i wish she wouldnt grow up...i love her too much....ssshhhhh...dont tell anyone...hehehe...like you could...well...maybe a few people could...gosh...............im going to go lay down for the 100000 time.....good mornin...........night night 4:48....heh... twisted I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP GOD DAMIT.....!!!!!!!!!!

im going ******** crazy..........he wont leave me alone...that statement could apply to two different people..in all honesty, the both havent left me alone..however..i wish one would very soon...he is the reason why i cant sleep at night..the reason why i stay up till early in the morning...the other is a flame that has long been burnt out...i wish i had a shrink...friends are good, but they often tell you what you are doing wrong...not how to improve the situation...ill just detach from everything first...like i did before...ill just talk only to myself again...i hate men...i hate me...

As much as I hate emo kids...im turning into one..its stressful..Thats why there arent any "true punks" left...they all became sad and woke up emo one day.. Its my fault really...I left a great thing a while ago...its the only thing i regret...and i cant change it... i just want to scream and go hunt uber thin girls...and kill them with my bare hands..grab them by their long blonde hair and smash their tanned skin into the concrete...and laugh hysterically as the police try to pull me off the mutilated corpse..heh...if only i didnt care about what would happen to me if i did something like that..maybe i shouldnt..heh.. twisted