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WARNING: Depressed ranting :/

Im so tired of everything. Im tired of the yelling, im tired of crying im just so sick of my family. I really hate it here. I have no privacy and i just can't get away. Today i was on the phone with Jenny and Margaret, my nephews mom, called through and i asked her to call back here shortly cause i was on the other line. She said ok and that was it. Jeremy, my brother over heard and told my mom that i didnt let her talk to him since i was on the phone. She storms down and starts yelling about how nothing is more important then her grandson. I hang up the phone and she storms up stairs.

Couldn't they have waited 5 more minutes? Well obviously not. So i walked out and walked up to the store so i wouldnt get more upset. It was fine until they were going to leave again when she asked me "So do you have your priorites straight? Next time she calls are you going to let us talk to her? Sure Jenny is important but nothing is as important as james" I hung up with Jenny again since i had called her back "NO actully. I dont think that its fair that i should have to stop my conversation for her" that pissed her off "What if it was importnat? What if something had happend" I said "if it was important then she would have said so" She yelled more and said something that just made me start to cry"Well since you don't goto school or contriubute to the family with money you cant decide whos important when it comes to the phone." And she walked out slamming the door. What the hell does she mean by that? Sure i don't make as much as they do, because i dont work as much! But I do give her money. I do buy groceries when she doesnt have the money and i do. I gave plasma a few weeks ago, and she couldn't. They pay you $25 and i gave her the $20 because she waited 2 hours with me and drove me there. Its just not fair. She treats me like a damn child. She saw something on maury about how Women are being stalked online and now she says i shouldnt be in chats anymore or talk to people i don't know. You know what. Its my life. If someone wants to stalk me then dammit let them stalk me. It just shows me that someone cares about my existance. Damn. I dont think i can get $300+ by the end of the month. So it looks like ill be starting maybe next year. horray. More time with the family.

Oi! ^___^ Back from my first con...

I really need to fix my costume XD First off, i had to stand in line to signup and stuff for
like 2 hours! My feet hurt x_X It cost me $25 to get in and i had $40 with me. I spent..$5.60 total cause im too cheap. I bought two Tsubasa posters and some candy XD

There was soooo much stuff i wanted! And the costumes were great! But..there were some really really scary ones too..omg..there was a Kenshin..*shudder* hah. But Only two other
people dressed as my character and they both did such better jobs! X_x Some people took my
pictures and the others thought i was from AH! My goddess >>

I didnt have a camera!! My stupid piece of crap digital camera sucks down battery life fast
and i couldnt find any batterys so i couldnt take it.My friend /thinks/ she took my
picture, i hope she did ;_; later on i gave up and wore a white cabbit hat. People thought
that was cute. They had an unoffical Gaia panel too. I almost got a free kiki shirt
but i messed up my answer!! *cries* Oh well, it probley wouldnt fit me anyways. I did
get a few gaia posters too

I had to stand in another line for an hour to watch my friends cosplay. There
were 6 of them all together and there were 3 diffrent skits. I was left with the pile
of cameras >> to take pictures but i didnt mind it cause some of the skits were
hilarious. There was one that had three Ichigos (two kittys and one from bleach)
XD That was so great They did a game show. I laughed so hard cause they
danced to the numa numa song.After that they had the rave. Lots of lights and
gggglllooowww sstticckkss!! xD I didnt get back into town until 3am and i just stayed
at my friends house so she wouldnt have to drive me home. It was another 30 minutes away.

Um, done ranting i guess. Maybe Ikasucon will post up some pictures. I know alot of those
people there had Devi accounts..nobodys heard of Sheezy though >> Meh, but yeah. Great time
i had fun for my first Con! I played video games too! No DDR which made me sad
the line was really long all day and by the time the vendors shut down the competition had
started I'll improve my costume and go next year again, probley to okatsucon(or whatever) the main one in ohio. hehe.

So last night i must have had some dream where i kicked something or someone really hard. I dont remember it at all. So when i wake up i find a nice foot sized hole in my wall beside my bed..the wood behind it is even broken. Oops.. My foot doesnt actully hurt at all and i dont remember a thing. Its rather funny how wierd dreams can be sometimes. My parents arn't mad 'whew' since i didnt do it on purpose like my brother had so many times. Now i need some artwork to cover it. There are a total of three holes in my wall one which is my fault and the others were here when we got here. The two from before are coverd but artwork of my friends. She sent me a christmas poster type of thing in '02' and thats where its hung since, beside my bed over the hole. The other is hidden, but whatever..yeah so..any ideas how to cover it? I don't think we have the plaster stuff to fix it.