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You know those really great hugs that just make you feel warm and fuzzy. You know, the ones that make you feel so safe and secure, so much so that you just don't want the other person to let go. I used to know this guy who gave the best hugs, I would have been happy to be in his arms forever. Unfortunately it didn't last forever, but that's not the point. Last night I had a dream, an amazing dream and I ran into someone's arms, I was so happy to see them. He held me so close, I kissed him then just buried my head in his shoulder, the shoulder of his red shirt, and tears came down my face. I loved him, with more of myself than I have loved anyone. I loved him. The moment was short and he disappeared and the dream changed. Ah those dreams, those memories. I don't think I've hugged anyone, really embraced them, in a long while. Ah life, so confusing.

Along a curved and jagged line
I walk alone and wandering.
My heart is never settled
Oh how it aches for an intimate love
Just to be close to someone
Though I've always walked alone
Its not quite understandable
Quite understandably so
I've chosen quiet over common
I can't keep my mouth shut
Talkative is not always a blessing
I have no secrets,
No reasons for lies
Ask me and I shall answer
I can't guarantee a happy turnout
So I sing
No one hears me
I have sung a hundred songs
Only ever shared with my cats
I just want to be close to someone
But I'm afraid
They always leave me
No wonder far away places sound good
I could leave them before they left me
Maybe its just PMS talking
Maybe I just have issues
I've always been alone
And its really no one's fault
They've been there when they could
I'm just badly placed for fitting
I'm in the wrong angle
although we have tried
It just doesn't work
O how I wish it were easier to fix
I'm so sick of being alone in this bloody city