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Well, so it would seem that everyone hates me today. People that I thought I connected to, people I thought were the only one that cared enough on this net, told me they didn't care. It's silly for me to have this effect me, but when you have been friends with someone this long it leaves an empty feeling. If only you people pretty much heard the words exchanged, the person just doesn't give a ********. I don't know why, but he told me he didn't give a ********. So now I have one of my best and beloved friends hating me, another ignoring me, and another wanting to rape me.

As soon as he got a boyfriend, he ditched me. I guess he didn't need me as a friend no more. Well, it hurts, I know it's silly but it hurts. I tried to encourage him, try to prove he meant something in this world, and when him wanted to quit life, I tried to give him a reason to live. I said I loved him plenty of times... he always flips on me...

I ******** suck...

That shows how fickle people are.

I can't be his friend no more.

I can't just ... I don't even know what to do.
He doesn't care.
He doesn't even care.
HE DOESNT ******** CARE!

I ******** cared!

I cared a ******** lot!

I dont care if he was not here in RL, he was a friend and I cared!
A ******** lot!
Too much!


You know what...


******** it...

I have no damn friends...

I touch myself when I am bored. That's like a 'gajillion' times.