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I didn`t believe I could spent so much time on Gaia, but I did. I have some clothes, a house in towns (not that it would look interesting crying , it`s nothing there - yet!)
I`m doing fine in the school - already have 2 exams done. From forensic medicine (too much laws), and from ophthalmology. blaugh
Ahhh man, eek we had autopsy every day and we had...I saw...I rather do not write about that. Ok, just briefly: carcrash-man, 20-years-old girl (same age as my sister, OMG), man found after 4 days - that were the worst ones. I could never work as a pathologist. xp
But I must say, I remained in the autopsy-room, and I didn`t faint. And, beside the autopsy of the 20-y-girl, I wasn`t emotionally affected. Sometimes this scares me - even when I see living patients, I feel sorry for them, but I have nothing like bad dreams or don`t think about them after I leave the hospital.
Today, I first had tears in my eyes when talking to a patient. It was 14-years old bouy with autism. He wasn`t looking like he has it. He was talkative, smiled, answered questions. Even if you saw from his answers that he was hard mentally ill. His big and only dream was to ride a car. He even saved money to buy one (he is 14!) - (not the whole sum, but like 17 000 crowns=600dollars), by selling old iron and paper and so. But even if he would buy it, he will probably never ride it. cry . Life is so hard to live sometimes.

arrow Gaia! I finnaly found it. But every joy brings some torture. Like I have to run around in hairy cave bottom redface , because I counted badly and couldn`t buy nothing else more in that moment.How to earn some gold? Can`t go sooo naked among people (to the forum). "Man am I crazy?"pops up a question in my head. "It`s just a chatroom on internet" BUT (again my first, primary voice-in-head) it`s also and maybe my new community (hmm, type of). It always depends on first look. wink
So I run around the city, tried to earn some gold. My question on Myself: Am I too proud or too shy?
arrow mrgreen Meanwhile, in my smile real smile life, I was on lecture from forensic medicine. neutral I saw things...The theme was: bullet/missile wounds(picture of a 9 years old girl , whose head ended just above mouth), blast wounds (man without pelvis was the neatest one) and bite wounds - the last was the most horrible (would you think?). I hope I don`t dream bout this. In few weeks, we are going to watch the real forensic autopsy (I`ve already seen normal and done anatomy ones). I hope I can remain in the room than. I hope it will be no kid... confused