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I guess I could say that I really loved you , so let's put it this way pack all your things and leave me behind, It's better off this way just leave it alone just leave it alone

My hearts been misplaced I guess you could say that Im leaving you behind.
Thanks for your memories and Im sorry to say they dont mean anything to me it's better off this way so just leave it alone just leave it alone just leave it alone just leave it alone...

panic,pain,pressure to my brain
thoughts of him leave me insane
I think of him, my heart drowns
This heavy burden, messing with my sould
This heavy burden, my heart cant control

just leave it alone, just leave it alone,
(scream) just leave me alone

can sanity be sane
or am I just the plain space you see
Can you see me at all
Whats my reason to be?



a song Ive been working on lately I cant seem to get it right though.. most of it was for a friend but I think it's becoming more and more about me everytime I start writing.. so yeah...

Well today I felt really bad because One of my friends told me that her sister took me away from her. Im not one persons friend Im friends with both of them. It just makes me feel really bad and depressed because I like to please people I don't like people to be dissapointed in me It makes me feel really bad I feel it's my fault when really it's not I mean to say that well the one that feels left out when ever I go over there we watch tv or I play xbox with her I don't leave her out of things then I go talk to her sister for a little while and come back its stupid that I feel this way because I feel like Im in the middle of a competition or something like their competing for friends and I hate it I just want to avoid them for awhile cuz it's awkward a little well actually alot and when I heard all this it made me feel like everyone was making me the bad person and it sucks I wish you guys would never feel this way that I do. Friends where Im at are complicated. And I really miss a certain someone I can't help but to cry Even though It's stupid to I can't control my feelings anymore Im cutting not bad but yeah My mom found out she got mad at me not for the danger part either because supposedly "You'll get scars then youll look back and say I wish I never did that..." and Im going You have no idea how I feel and what kind of problems I have and all this crap that happens to me but I guess no one ever will. I know everyone has problems and all but I just had to find a way to get it out of my head I thought this would work but It's not and Jason I really miss you alot I don't know whats wrong but what ever it is I hope it gets better for you I feel like I need you in some way but I havent talked to you in almost 3 weeks and Im worried about you I guess I just wanted you to know that. I love you and miss you and hope to hear from you soon. Well if anyone reads this don't worry about me Im not real cheerupable as I would call it but yeah I guess Ill talk to you guys all later or something I got to go

If I open up to you
Would you love me more
If I gave you my heart
Would you give yours
If I told a lie
Would you be able to tell
If I was mad at you
would you notice
If I gave everything I had
Would you do that too
If I let myself go
Would you be there to catch me
If I let you down
Would you hate me forever
If I couldnt talk
Would you wait for me
If I changed my mind
Would you change too.
If I wore my heart on my sleeve
Would you care
If I never changed
Would you take me that way
If I trusted you with a secret
Would you be able to keep it