Well today I felt really bad because One of my friends told me that her sister took me away from her. Im not one persons friend Im friends with both of them. It just makes me feel really bad and depressed because I like to please people I don't like people to be dissapointed in me It makes me feel really bad I feel it's my fault when really it's not I mean to say that well the one that feels left out when ever I go over there we watch tv or I play xbox with her I don't leave her out of things then I go talk to her sister for a little while and come back its stupid that I feel this way because I feel like Im in the middle of a competition or something like their competing for friends and I hate it I just want to avoid them for awhile cuz it's awkward a little well actually alot and when I heard all this it made me feel like everyone was making me the bad person and it sucks I wish you guys would never feel this way that I do. Friends where Im at are complicated. And I really miss a certain someone I can't help but to cry Even though It's stupid to I can't control my feelings anymore Im cutting not bad but yeah My mom found out she got mad at me not for the danger part either because supposedly "You'll get scars then youll look back and say I wish I never did that..." and Im going You have no idea how I feel and what kind of problems I have and all this crap that happens to me but I guess no one ever will. I know everyone has problems and all but I just had to find a way to get it out of my head I thought this would work but It's not and Jason I really miss you alot I don't know whats wrong but what ever it is I hope it gets better for you I feel like I need you in some way but I havent talked to you in almost 3 weeks and Im worried about you I guess I just wanted you to know that. I love you and miss you and hope to hear from you soon. Well if anyone reads this don't worry about me Im not real cheerupable as I would call it but yeah I guess Ill talk to you guys all later or something I got to go
Im_Burning_star_IV · Thu Aug 03, 2006 @ 12:26am · 1 Comments |