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I'm interseted in various things. Things such
as anime, art, tv, people, music, and things I am not
fully accustomed to yet. I enjoy doing more than one
thing and I do not have my mind set on doing a
particular thing. If life were that simple boredom
would never cease to exist. That would be something I
could not accept. My hobbies and interest are the
only things that keep me from slipping into a
depression not far from grasp (or fall more so).

One thing I have particularly enjoyed is Art. I
can't really pin-point a place and time that i became
infatuated with with such an obsession, but I'm glad
the artistic part in my mind took root and settled in
early. Otherwise my ability to draw would be that of
my brothers; which isn't a pretty sight.

The first time I attempted to draw anime was in
5th grade. I began by drawing Dragon Ball Z and
Chrono Cross characters and such. I then began to
further expand my ability to draw this type of art
around middle school. My friend (Melody J. Fraley),
and I would show each other a new drawing every once
in a while during activity. I will admit that I am
not very good at drawing anime, but I will continue
with such things because, as I stated before, there
are very few things that seem to hold my interest.

Another type of art that may become a new
obsession of mine is pottery. I enjoy using the
wheel. This is the year that I have taken
appreciation for such things. Clay is fun and I hope
to have my own wheel soon (someday, who knows).

Music. Music is one of those things you can't
live whithout. As you may already know, my brother
has dedicated his life towards our similar obsession.
We will never grow old of music. My brother and I
developed similar relations through our early
childhood. He was my role-model afterall.

My brother is into hardcore. It is one of the
only music types that has taken hold of me too. He is
going to be "the" famous basist for Fallenday. I on
the other hand would rather dedicate my time composing
music for things such as video games. Don't get me
wrong. I'm just a geek that way. I also have my bass
so I'm sure I may take different interests for music.
I'm to young to decide what profession my life will be
dedicated towards (not that it will be one profession)
so thinking ahead isn't something I will dwell on. I
will know what I wish to do when the time is right.

People are something else. When I was a child
all I ever tried to do was please others. I began by
working through my talents. Drawing of course. But,
there weren't many people for me to please in my early
childhood either. I mostly looked towards my mother
for comfort and affection. Waking up everyday was
something a young mind and body could appreciate. I
maybe talking like I've already given up on life, but
that's because my delicate life has slowly began to
deteriorate. Slipping away from others is not
something I enjoy.

Because my life seems so delicate lately I have
become extremely depressed. Crying is something I do
when the tears seem to break free of their own will.
I used to think that the world was a sweet and
inoccent place. Like I said before, pleasing people
was something I enjoyed. The world was sweet.