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i'm not sure about anyone else but i am scared beyond to the date of 2012. what if the world does end? i'm not ready to die, i want to grow old with a lover and let our child or children grow old.. like the world is so pretty... why would anything want to to destroy it?
sometimes i cry because i am so scared, i just don't know what to do.. i don't want to let go of everything, i'm too young. i don't care of 'live for today and whatever happens happens,' shut the ******** up. seriously, you are scared but you put a damn act up front. i live my days to the fullest but that isn't the problem. life shouldn't be played like a game, when you die, you die. you have nothing more. that's it. your life is gone, you have nothing. all those people you care about, you cannot see, feel, hear them. i love feeling love. i love the world, i love waking up every morning knowing i can be so carefree and see something beautiful outside.
but if the world ends in 2012, what the hell is the meaning of life if we only have not even three years left to live.
it's a terrible feeling and i think if a lot of you actually had more heart into this.. you would understand.. it has nothing to do with being scared, i'm not ready, and i will always keep hoping that it will just be a myth, or something, anything comes saves us. please.