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times i've gone out with: too many times to count -_-
how hot scale of one to ten: 4
how much i love him: too much for words

ian was the first guy i ever really loved, he was sweet, funny, into anime, and he would do anything for me.... so i got bored of him stare

i know its stupid but it got to a point that every time he called i wanted to throw up but for the longest time i couldn't bring myself to break up with him but... i did.

my friends didn't like him but after i broke up with him i would get hurt by other guys and run back to him he always had open arms for me but i knew he deserved more then me so i tryed to drop him altogether but he wouldn't let me he was stuborn..

i tryed hurting him but he still loved me.
i tryed ignoring his calls but he still dialed my number.
i couldn't stop it and it made me sick to my stomach
why cant he get over me?

i'm so confused and i don't know what to do. i have big boy problems so much that i have to number them to keep then straight!!!

ian:1
adam:2
jake:3
collin:4
cant give you the name of this one:5
nick:6
jaxon:7
jesse:8
john:9
lucas:10

from the start. i've never been popular, boys didn't even notice me a year ago, but then my dad died and i began to wear make-up and do my hair and EVERYONE noticed. starting with 7 the first day of 6th grade and i sat down in my 2nd hour and there he was wearing his mcr t and red tie, staring right at ME! after class we talked and noticed we both liked music, red vs blue, and each other! he asked me out and we were a thing but i had to move because my mom didn't want to like in the house were my dad died. the new school i went to was full of preps and i soon found i wouldn't be able to fit in. everyone hated me for a few weeks then a girl switched classes and ended up in all my core classes, we clicked and she ended up hooking me up with 8 and my bestfriend haley. 8 and i went out for a few months but one day i went to skool and all of his friends walked up to me saying "8's gonna dump you today" i quickly asked out his bestfriend 9 but he won't have that and he asked me back out i got over his punk @$$ self and started going out with my old bestfriend lauren's brother 10 he and i went out all summer and saw each other at the theme park every weekend all the while 8 calling me asking for me back every day. 10 and i started getting into fights and broke up. soon after i became friends with bekah and she hooked me up with 1 we went out for a few months but he was too sweet for me and i quickly got bored of him and started going out with 2 but he broke up with me for my friend shelby and i was lost and alone when i met up with my old friend 4 and we got together but he quickly dumped me and i started going out with 2 again but now i'm at my cousin's house and the boy she's liked all year, 5, wants to go out with me!!!!!!

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