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Where is my hope? i fear its gone astray
Lost in the tide of endless heartbreak
Drowning in a sea of meleancholy moonray
Love, pierced through its heart with a thorny stake
Can i survive this worthless life?
Is it even worth it to try?
Can i survive this world of hate and strife?
If i said yes, i fear that'd be a lie.
You grabbed that knife and named it Love
And you kissed me soundly on the lips
You gave me Love, and into my chest that knife you did shove...
And i was betrayed again, my heart cut to bloody strips
Killing myself is my new goal
So i'll slit my wrists open and let the blood flow
I'll tie that noose to that overhenging pole
and i'll take the pills, they'll never know...
Nobody will know until its too late
And they hap upon my corpse still hanging
The will not wonder why life i did hate
They will only shrug and sigh, hearts panging
I'll be buried and forgotten right after i'm dead
And i'll still love you
But you will have another sweetheart in my stead
and all my memory is worth less than mornings dew.
 xNoxSuchxThingxAsxLovex · Thu Sep 28, 2006 @ 11:06am · 0 Comments |
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who is there to guide me through this stoney maze?
who will be my candle through the dark?
who will hold me close, while my own mind is in a craze...
who would whisper sweet nothings in my ear, and comment on the singing lark?
i am alone. cold and abused...
i want to scream, to cry, to tear through my flesh
i look longingly at a jagged blade, beckoning me, never used...
i sigh, knowing that i must come to an end, all my pain is brought back afresh.
who can save me? who can save me? who can save me? who can save me?
xNoxSuchxThingxAsxLovex · Mon Aug 29, 2005 @ 10:40pm · 1 Comments |
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i dream of the shadow
it calls to me in my sleep
i shows me images of death, boidies hanging on a gallow
it shows me the bloody guillotine, i watch the body fall into a heap
i dream of the shadow, a merciless harbringer
he shows me my end, bloody and cruel
as i watch helplessly, i feel him linger
on the edge of my mind, i see my shadow-self eat gruel
i dream of the shadow, he brings me into his embrace
i shudder at the icy coldness of his breath, and his soul
i feel his mind envelope my dreams like a cloak... i feel my heart race...
he is.. happy... he is mine. i am his. i look at his eyes, dark as coal
i dream of the shadow, his breath clouds around us like fog
he brings me to places of death and sorrow
he promises eternal life to me if i stay with him forever, like a dog...
he says i'll get eternal youth, and be his love, to be wed on the morrow
i dream of the shadow, as he whispers his name upon my ear
a lingering echo is the response... i look away, sighing
he smiles a smile of death, as he turns, he does not see my one tear
i wipe it away, now is no time for regret nor whining
i now am the only companion of Death.
xNoxSuchxThingxAsxLovex · Mon Jul 11, 2005 @ 03:23am · 1 Comments |
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All of you, who are living pampered, fulfilling lives do not know the BEGINNING of the torment some of us feel... i feel, as if i were not a human... cast out by the bounds of society, no one accepting who or why i am. they are intimidated by individuality, as if it were a deadly poison.... all of the wretches in this dreadful earth, they are but one and the same to me.... they mold, meld, and become one another, they are all the same lying, conniving, and soulless wanderers, whose only objective in life is to become the best, even if it means stooping down to be the worst. i don't belong in a world of mortals.
xNoxSuchxThingxAsxLovex · Fri Jul 01, 2005 @ 07:00pm · 2 Comments |
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I sit, listening to the wind blow
My only solace, in a world of broken dreams
I sit, listening to the tortured souls below,
Nothing is as peaceful as it seems.
I sing to the shadows, threatening death,
As if my only chance of life lies in song
I sing to the shadows, 'til i breath my last breath
Only to find that my assumptions were wrong.
I smell the roses, so full, yet not...
They live only a half life, soon to be dust
I smell the roses, as my face grows hot,
I feel deep down that I know I must.
I cry, as i walk down the barren path,
My warm tears but crimson drops on dirt
I cry, knowing the torment, sorrow, and wrath
In my soul is soon to be gone with the hurt.
I smile my last, and i spread my arms wide
My hair flies freely in the wind's harsh carress
I smile, as i fall slowly, my soul heads to where it shall reside
I am now gone, all remains dashed by the waters' molest.
stare
xNoxSuchxThingxAsxLovex · Sun Jun 26, 2005 @ 06:30pm · 1 Comments |
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