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i don't know if people ever come to read this anymore but if you do talk the time for it and you'd like to see some of my pictures and drawings why don't you check out my DA gallery.
here's a sample:


i have other stuff too. it don't all look like this. so what do you saw? why not go take a look? sweatdrop

if i got a gun... do you think i could talk Cecilli into shooting me? i've thought about that a lot in the past few weeks.

ah this last weekend. what is there to say? againg the girl in whom i love and i got to see eachother. she came into town and i was asked to come down and spend the next day with her. at first i wasn't sure if i'd get the whole day but then talking it out i was able to find out that it didn't look to be a problem. i rode my bike to town the next day... i had gotten up early to get down there and so i got there... ummm.... i think about 0900 or 10. we had to babysit... it wasn't to big a deal. nothing we hadn't done before.
right now i can't think of as much to say on the weekend as i wanted to. so i guess i'll just say whatever pops into mind about it. and i'll try to give it some order.
the day went by quickly. ther were no big problems. we went out to her grandma's place in the afternoon. lol she showed me this car she just has to fix up and then it's all hers to do with what she wants. we got in and sat around for a bit. i guess we kinda made out in it a bit... but it wasn't much. (or so i'm telling all of you) then we took off on the way home. her mom's home anyway. her mom wanted to go out and party and so she left us again after a little bit. we did a little of this and a little of that. then the baby we were siting ... (sounds off but thats the only way i'll put it) started in crying. we tryed this and that. we feed him... he ate, but didn't stop the crying. we put him here and there and everywhere. nothing was working... it was kinda stressful.
love and i were haveing a hard time of it and soon she was driven mad from the stress. she started yelling at everything. but not for long. she doesn't believe me when i tell her it did get to me... her yelling at me that is. i didn't really think anything about it at the time. soon she put on music and i tried rocking the kid to sleep. she ran from the house. i wasn't sure where she went but i was wishing i could be right behind her. sadly i had a job to do and was in the midle of it... i really really wish i could have fallowed her. not long after she was back. she was crying too. here again i found myself really wishing i could drop everything and hold her. she looked so sad. she sat on the floor in front of me and kept crying. i found myself with out words. i also found myself so far away. even though she was less than 2 feet away i couldn't get to her. i wnted to be there for her but i didn't know how i could. she kept moving around from one place to another. i tried to keep looking into her eyes. i wanted her to know everything would be ok... and i wanted her to know i loved her. but as i said before... i could find the words. soon the kid was out like a light. i asked her where we should put him. she showed me to the room in whitch he slept. we put him to bed and then i was able to hold her close and find out what was wrong. we talked for a time... then moved to the couch. we turned out most of the lights and again i held her close. slowly we drifted off to sleep in eachother's arms. it was the wonderful... it was the first time we ever got to just drift off to sleep.
next thing i knew her mom came home. she didn't see that we were getting into anything we shouldn't be on the couch and let us be. after that i feel asleep again... next thing i knew someone was at the door. after a min she got up and checked it. it was my mother. my mom was pissed. i thought i'd be home sooner... but here i was falling asleep in my love's arms. i got my stuff togather. then i went home. mom was telling me i was in for it this time. but that was a few days ago and she still hasn't done anything... i don't think she cares that much... oh well... that was my weekend in a nut shell...
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