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I am a Sky Angel
You are the Sky Angel.You are calm, peaceful and serene.It can take an eternity to make you angry, but you can be very distructive on a whim.You can be slow to make friends, but you will stick by somone through thick and thin, and won't betray them, like the night.You like blues and whites, pastely colours.You are also atracted to birds, as they share your domain.

Have you ever felt like if you where just to disappear or die that nobody would care or even notice....well that is how I feel everyday and the thing is......*sorry I am trying to think of a way to put this*..........I have done things that I would have never of done before and most people would have never expected me to do.I used to think that committing Suicide was selfish and then when I tried I completely understood why people all over the world has tried and let's just say as much as I even hated the thought of it I somehow thought it would make all my pain go away and I would finally be free crying I know that if you know me in the RL you are probably thinking whatever she would never do something like that,but I did,I have tried 3 or more times now and for somereason no matter how hard I try and really want it,it just doesn't work crying I am so lost and confussed!

When your hero falls from grace
all fairy tales r uncovered
myths exposed and pain magnified
the greatest pain discovered
u taught me 2 be strong
but im confused 2 c u so weak
u said never 2 give up
and it hurts 2 c u welcome defeat
when ure hero falls so do the stars
and so does the perception of tomorrow
without my hero there is only
me alone 2 deal with my sorrow
your heart ceases 2 work
and your soul is not happy at all
what r u expected 2 do
when ure only hero falls

My Elf Name:Sairalinde Calaelen
My Hobbit Name:Rosie Deepdelver

Amanda's Elf Name:Luthien Telemnar
Amanda's Hobbit Name:Rosie-Posie Sandybanks of Frogmorton

Dana's Elf Name:Nessa Tulcakelume
Dana's Hobbit Name razz ansy Danderfluff

Miranda's Elf Name:Ireth Telemnar
Miranda's Hobbit Name razz rimula Sandybanks of Frogmorton

Stephanie's Elf Name:Luthien Sirfalas
Stephanie's Hobbit Name:Ivy Bumbleroot of Haysend

Meredith's Elf Name:Maranwe Inglorion
Meredith's Hobbit Name:Melilot Chubb-Baggins of Pincup

I will add more later!

biggrin It has been absolutely terrific..........it turns out my Father did not have to leave on business stare he had to pick my grandparents who flew in from France up from the airport and they made calls to a lot of people.It also turns out that Xen only wanted to get me out of the house so our Father could prepare*I spent my birthday with my Mother this year*When Xen and I got back Xen went in the house first to make sure father did not stand us up again,*if he would have we had made plans to go to a really nice resturant*she waved me in from the window to let me know he was there for dinner as planned and when I walked in everyone completely surprised me with a surprise party! biggrin I had tons of fun with my family and friends! whee I would have to say I am......... eek Well I got to go!Bye for now! wink

The other day I got to meet my bestfriend Sally's guy friend in Canda who she talked on the phone with for 3 hours*which I think is ridiculous* lol so far he seems really nice but I have not really talked to him to much.

Finally my Father got back from Paris so as of a few hours ago I am in California with him,considering he is not here,he had to leave on important business when I got into town so I have been shopping with my sister Xen and a few of our friends,now we are thinking of going to the beach for a few hours before we have to meet our Father for dinner*which he will probably delay as usual*!Well got to go,Venny just pulled the car around!I will add more later!

cry I Cry
Sometimes when I'm alone
I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I Cry
and no one cares about why.