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I have no ******** idea what to do.

I don't want to rant in my journal becuase nobody gives a s**t about those and i can't get anyone to talk to me. if i do it in the guild, then i get told to calm down because i rant too much.

Jay's moving to Toronto

Panda's not coming on anymore and i'm worried

The guild mods hate me now

A kid died at our school in a car accident near my house

Life is ******** messed up. It's the first time in a while that i've hope something will kill me. I'm not going to bother killing myself. but i deserve for something bad to happen to me in order to return the Karma that i've been told i'll be getting for what i've said.

Maybe i'll be lucky.

I'll be off the guild for who knows how long. I'm still not ready to apologize after being called a whiny emo crybaby and such. I need to find another place to vent.

... where someone might actually hear.

ja.

Wow... what a shitty week so far... All hell has broken loose. I feel miserable... i have three projects due soon... and Spider's still not on.
Well, at least there's ONE guy irl that i can handle talking to. His name's Jacob and he's in my tech class. Really funny guy... he was laughing about how our teacher looks like his nose hairs are blended with his mustache. I think he was feeling the effects of New Years still...
Either way, he's a funny guy. Total pyromaniac! Too bad he's only in one of my classes. He's great to be around. ^^
I've been considering not coming on Gaia for a while... taking a break... enjoying my other life... I mean... now that i'm in high school, its loads better. I hated almost everyone from my old school. My best friend was a year younger than me. We were some of the only anime fans there...
My webcomic is being planned out wonderfully in my head. I need more bad guys... i might post something for ideas... but a good friend of mine isn't posting on the guild anymore because she felt hurt and hated... making my bad day feel even more horrible. I hate it when i can't talk to friends. At least i can still talk to her online... but i still like to hear her opinion on random things...
Damn school... I dont' wanna go anymore... maybe i should take some sleeping pills or something... ah well.
I'll stop rambling now.

I'm really worried. I'm hoping we can get to DreamerPhoenix in time before he does anything rash. crying We all hope that he stays. He's awesome! I don't see why he'd want to leave!