Not really sure what I am going to do with this yet. I have like 3 other journal's already. Maybe I will use it to flush out ideas or something. We will see.
Home
So I had like, 6000 gold yesterday morning. Then I got a home and some furniture...and now I am below 1000. Funny thing is that I don't spend as much time here as I would like so it is going to take a while for me to build that much money up again. Still, I suppose that I will just have to work on it.
There is one person out there in cyber space who's opinion means more to me than anything. Well, today I just got told that he didn't care about any of my work anymore. That hurts. You have no idea how much. I mean...I have valued his oppinion above all others for so long and to be told that he doesn't even care about my stuff anymore really makes me wonder.
About a year ago I sent him something and it took him 3 months to read it...and even then he had to be bribed into it. What the hell is so wrong with my stuff? I mean I have thougth I have gotten better and yet now the one who has actually encouraged so much of my growth has now stopped even looking at my stuff. The only reason he looks at my deviations is to find something to nitpick about them...or so that he can crack some joke about them.
Well, Feelex from Deviant Art just joined one of my X-MEN RPG's. He decided to play Warren Worthington...aka Arch Angel. Sof ar he is doing a pretty good job and I have been sucked into playing across from him since I have nothing else to do. I have had Regina kind of setting on the sidelines for a bit so I decided to bring her back into the game. There are so many times that I have just put her aside for a while and not done anything with her for days, sometimes even weeks. Not sure why that is, it just seems to happen. Maybe it is because she is not talking to me.
Well, I just pulled her back into the action and I kind of wonder what I will do with her now. I am pretty sure that before the night is over (rp time) that she will be in bed with Warren. That is different. Usually she gets with Wolverine or Kurt. To have her with someone completely different is really strange.
In my RP time I have learned a lot. I have learned to be more tactful, to be more polite and to be less possessive. I hope that makes me a better player. For some reason though when I join a new group or when I try to get a new member into a group I start to doubt myself.
'What if I screw up?' 'I hope that post didn't sound too horrible.' 'They have probalby read better posts...that one was aweful.'
Maybe it is just me being panicky or something.
Ok, so I just got new mail. Off to read and reply.
Ok, so this is my first post. I just wanted to check this out and get a bit of a feel for the place. Time will tell how much I will use this and what it will be used for.