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I am not a leader. For a leader has the responsibility of lives in their hands. And a single act from a leader would forever impact the lives of those they hold. A leader needs to protect those they lead from the difficult and sometimes impossible decisions that can leaden them with the guilt for all the years they live.
Yes I am not a leader.
But a leader would not be flamboyant in the fact that they lead. A true leader does not brag about their leading others. They focus on keeping those they lead safe. For only a true leader is born of strife. They come out above the rest- not for glory. Not for fame. But for the simple reason that it’s a job that must be done- and there is no one else willing to lead.
Yes, only great leaders are born of strife and necessity.
Yet, I am not a leader. And I hope to never have to take on the responsibility of one. For that would mean that I and others would be in a dire situation. But if need be, I will do what I must to protect people.
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Once in a while, when i hear particular music or see a certain type of movie, I tend to think of how i can't stay where i am forever. I always have a feeling in the back of my mind in the back of my heart, that i need to start traveling.
I have always felt that maybe in a past life i was part of a nomad society or traveler of sorts.
It's not just that i feel like there are so many places that i want to go, or people i have always wanted to meet. But it's also that I feel that there are people who i have yet to meet. People who I have yet to help.
It's just at the moment, there are things that i need to accomplish before i can set off on my journey. And I am reluctant to finish them, for there are many people very special to me, that I will more then sorely miss.
And I know that with each place i visit, I will meet friends and people who I will miss as I continue on; and will always remember when I think of all the places I've been to.
I know that the world is so much smaller now that our technology has advanced so much, there are people out there I am so excited to meet, once I get started. But with my excitement and joy, i also can't help but feel sad and depressed for those i'm leaving behind. Even if it will only be temporary.
 Umi no Yume · Mon May 19, 2008 @ 02:55am · 0 Comments |
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some background for Tempest Ondine |
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ok, this part of her background would not be known by anyone she currently works with or encounters, and she can't remember this either. but this will explain what she is, before she was accidentally turned into a doll. (the story is a bit mushy...but it's simple and sweet)
The moon, as you know controls the ocean, and many people speculate that it's due to gravitational pull. These people would only be half correct. The reason that the sea moves towards the moon-is because of one reason. Love.
The moon sits alone in space, no one too keep her company, granting light to those who travel during the night. She however uses up all her energy and light until she has nothing left. This touches the ocean, and also saddens it as well. For someone so selfishness to give everything they have for those who need light, and not expect anything in return, it touches the ocean greatly.
So the ocean follows the moon as best as it can, and when the moon uses up all of her energy-the ocean sends up clouds full of energy to replenish the moon.
Eventually the moon, starts to feel the same way as the ocean, but she is no longer content to stay in the sky. She longs to go down to earth, and spend time with the ocean. The only one to ever give her something. So she takes a small part of herself and shapes herself into a being-much like a human. She pours her soul into this creature. And sends her to earth.
She lands near the shore of the ocean and starts walking towards the water's edge-eager to meet her love; when she accidentally walks into a pixie spell trap. The trap reacts badly to her moon/water magic and ends up transforming her into a doll, erasing her memories, and putting her into a deep sleep (coma...>.> wink .
Umi no Yume · Sun Mar 09, 2008 @ 04:05pm · 0 Comments |
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Death is a funny thing.
When you hear that someone you care about has died, you can't help but feel guilt.
Whether ignored the person for the last few years of their existance, or if you worked yourself to the bone taking care of them.
The words will still go through your head.
If only i had...
if only i had done more for them
if only i had spent more time with them.
if only i had paid more attention.
if only i had...then they would still be alive.
and nothing even your closest friends can say anything to make you feel better. You long for them just to shut up and let you cry.
Because even if some one comforts you-they only do it to make themselves feel better.
"I'm so sorry." They just say it because they don't know what else to say
"I know how you feel." no they don't, they might have had a similar experience-but the only one who knows what it feels like is you.
"if there is anything i can do...just let me know" most of the time they don't mean it if they say it-and if they do mean it- then it's just to make themselves feel better.
Plus everyone says the exact same phrases...and it all becomes a garbled jumble, played over and over on a broken record, until they loose their meaning
There is really no way to comfort someone in morning...except hugs. Don't say anything. Just hold onto them as they let themselves loose them self in their sorrow. Be their rock.
Umi no Yume · Thu Mar 06, 2008 @ 04:34am · 0 Comments |
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okies i watched this a long while ago. and it is one of my favorite movies. i think it is beautiful-the special effects are amazing and it's seemless with the acctual movie. and of course i love watching movies and animes in the origional language. so i've only seen this movie in spanish (with subtitles of course. i don't know much spanish).
and i think the most beautiful word is "afuera" (i hope i spelled that right). it means outside. and the way the little girl says that one word is so beautiful.
i have no idea what i wanted to say in this entry. but pans laberinth= heart
Umi no Yume · Wed Nov 21, 2007 @ 04:14pm · 0 Comments |
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AVI ART! for friend's list |
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ATTENTION: EVERYONE ON MY FRIENDS LIST:Due to increased boredome during my free moments at home (maily weekends) and lack of inspiration with drawings-i've decided to start creating my version of those people who make gaia fun to hang out on. So i am going to start doing avi art for all of my friends on my friend's list who still come on (must have been on with in the year 2007 as of July 23, 2007)3/90-ish People who have already gotten avi art(the links are also provided below and in order):1 -Mintahy2 -thebluehairguy3 -deznitapeople who's avies are currently being worked on(in order-ish):-shalron(note: needs to be redrawn-pose is a little weird)-kodora rei(finishing up the colour now )-magin paul(basic sketch began)- x-Neon Stitches -x (inked-now needs colour)-Des_512 (planning stages)-News Anchor Alex (planning stages)-Momo (planing stages)-Kamisharu Hashigawa (planning stages)- X] RazorBladeNinja [X (planning stages)people who are going to get avi art (in no particular order): Netasuke
Rem Knicho (is going to be one of the last to be done)
Aku Usagi no Youkai (i did one before of your old avi-you will get a recent one also)
Duel-Wielder
Iorek Byrinson
Chi-cat
Chrisanator (your gonna have to pick which one. pm me)
[Cerberus]
Dragonaxe3
cheese4ever (your gonna have to pick which one. pm me)
P.o.s.e.i.d.o.n.
Kitsune_Fallen_Angel
YuukiTsuki (is going to be one of the last ones done)
Meph!stopheles
monkeyman 213
Prince Akio
blood_the_last_vampire
[.Fliptrick.]
thunderhalk
Simsboy114
Yoshimaru-apprentace
kotoko_sohma
[Xx] [W t f] [xX]
Eucalyptus Spearmint
animeprincess88
AmadeusGale
WingGoddess23
spice10
roxasgrl
The Frail and the Fragile
Reno-dono
Jamason_Marrie_Johnson
Xeno Solarius
Akira-chan-13
O m o r t h a n
TohruHonda100
kirara880
babbie
Saber Knight
metal_man13
billababy99
x.mars.bar.x
[. Asu Luv .]
luvClarenceO
namako-chan
Hitomi_Escaflowne
Shakira16
Emmanuela
Rule322
bigbear313
~[HanaJima]~
Avatar Thief#1
Grimm_Shadows
cheese luv3r
Minos Vulcan (your gonna have to choose which avi. pm me)
AvatarBanningPolice
AFIs_Davey_Havok
Pheyt
omithe#1
icarrot
+ii_Am_BeAuTiFuL+
Mika Mouse
lord tac0
the big tree2(your going to have to pick which one. pm me)
Umi no Yume · Mon Jul 23, 2007 @ 04:11pm · 5 Comments |
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life even in it's best moments is just a moment of denile.
denile that one day, when you least expect it
or when you've been waiting and begging for it for years;
everything that you have worked so hard to accomplish,
or the eternity that has been dragging on for what seems like forever;
finnaly ends.
and for what?
for peace?
for silence?
did you leave your small dent in the world?
will someone remember you?
will children learn about you and idolize you?
or will the world you percieve die with you?
in the end...does it even matter?
does anyone even care?
and do you want them to?
they cry for a day-
then pick up the peices and try to put back together their lives from the void left
by your presence.
eventualy they forget.
eventualy everyone forgets
Umi no Yume · Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 07:24pm · 0 Comments |
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High above the scared earth metal beams form a lattice underneath the cloudy sky.
Unfinished, it sticks above the completed forms like a broken bone piercing through skin. Soft cloth flows with the breeze, it’s opaque, gentle color contrasting against the cold grey of the metal beams. Large black cranes towered over the strange buildings, with iron beams hanging from their hooks, swinging between the buildings. The whole place had the cold feeling of emptiness. And at the same time….it felt as if you were being watched from the open windows as the white drapes, caressed by the wind, moved with a life of their own. The levels have no walls. Just tile floors. And each room is almost like the small ones found in doll houses. The rooms feel too small for those who reside in them.
Even with the fully furnished rooms, you feel the need to escape. You feel trapped. But no stairs lead you to your escape. The only thing is the cranes with the large metal beams hanging from them.
Run. Jump.
For an instant as the wind whistles through your hair, you feel airborn, the wind almost seems to pick you up. Before gravity reminds you that you weren’t built with wings. And your sorrows pull you towards the hard dirt ground. Only by reaching out, taking a chance, your hand suddenly hits something cold and hard. The impact still pulls you down, and the sharp rough edge of the freshly cut steele beam cuts into the soft flesh of your hand. But survival instincts won’t let you let go. And soon your hanging from the beam, blood running down your arm as the crane sways gently with the wind. Creaking from your weight and the beam’s as well. And for now, your safe. High above the rust colored ground.
Umi no Yume · Tue May 22, 2007 @ 11:30pm · 3 Comments |
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Name:Lea
Nickname(s): La-chan, hey you
Age: looks 19
Occupation: dancer/gypsy/fortune teller
Interests: dancing, astrology
Status: single
Hair: blue
Eyes: silver
Appearence: She has silver mirror like eyes and dark blue hair that fades to white near the tip. She is built like a belly dancer. with strong legs, curvy hips, and nice abs. She wears a blue corset a fadded skirt. two pairs of long clear wings sprout from her back(like a dragon fly's wings) and she has a distinctive tatoo around her left eye.
Weapon(s): bladed fans, her dancing is a form of martial arts
Power(s): She summons her water spirit with her dance and then is able to manipulate water however she pleases. she sings to increase her strength. she is able to fly for very short periods of time and is very light on her feet
Most Recent Chapter: she fell from the heavens into the ocean, and washed ashore to a sea side village. That is the earliest thing she can remember. She was soon picked up by a troop of gypsies, when she was found in the same village she washed ashore at. but there were no more living creatures, and Lea was more animal then human, unfamiliar with with their society. The troop known as light in their own language, taught Lea how to speak and taught her kindness.
More recently, she found her troop massacred. With no where left to go, no home to return to, and no one who gives a damn about her alive, she now searches for those who killed the only people who she can call family, and any clues to her past.
Umi no Yume · Tue Apr 24, 2007 @ 10:42pm · 1 Comments |
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