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Lately, I haven't been feeling great. I had a horrible weekend after I learned my uncle has lung cancer and a good friend of mine passed away.

I had started feeling better. Friends did a good job of cheering me up when without even meaning too. Just talking about anything, Lost, Writing, and such. And it made me feel better. I even had friends who didn't know what happened cheer me up. I suppose friends can do that after all they say that's what friends are for.

However, someone who is supposed to be a friend actually did the opposite. And though she didn't know what happened she actually made me cry. Now lately that isn't that hard to do. But when I tried to talk to her all she told me was that she wasn't in the mood for that conversation. And suddenly I burst into tears. I just decided to stop talking to her and I began talking to another friend who calmed me down.

Friends are supposed to be able to make you feel better when your down. I was feeling fine and she put me back where I was with a simple statement. I am beginning to wonder if maybe we shouldn't be friends. She was a former fanlibber and we used to be pretty close. When it shut down, she changed. Now I have talked to many former fanlibbers and nobody acts like she does. She almost tries to avoid talking to any of us. And that hurts.

I just kinda felt like sharing some thoughts. If you have any please comment. I like to hear from people.