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22 years old and not sure where the years have gone. Been rather unsure of myself for quite some time. My emotional range is not somthing I can seem to measure as it fluxuates here and there.
Part of me feels as though getting a Girlfriend is a bad idea for multiple reasons. Mainly because I feel I am simply not boyfriend material. I fell as though I would do all the wrong things and not be able to keep a girlfriend happy. Not to mention, I tend to feel like a burden now and then.
I make very little money, I am no where near cute or handsom and I'm probably one of the weakest 22 year olds around, soon to be 23.
People say that because of my kindness, I would be a good boyfriend but the thing is that only works if you can even get your foot in the door of starting a relationship and thats useually by when a girl things a guy looks cute or handsom and I already know right now that there is no way any girl could think that of me.
To those who don't know, I was born with a birth deffect that makes it look like I have a huge tumor on the right side of my face but it's not a tumor, it's not somthing that can be cured either.
Despite all this I am still living a good life. I have a loveing family, and I am indeed not uncomfortable where I live. I am a Christian and have been for a long time. I have a good amount of online friends and a few in real life. My hopes are to one day get a job as a writer somewhere so I can afford my own place easily. I suppose that is all for now, might write more later.

22 years old and not sure where the years have gone. Been rather unsure of myself for quite some time. My emotional range is not somthing I can seem to measure as it fluxuates here and there. Part of me feels as though getting a Girlfriend is a bad idea for multiple reasons. Mainly because I feel I am simply not boyfriend material. I fell as though I would do all the wrong things and not be able to keep a girlfriend happy. Not to mention, I tend to feel like a burden now and then. I make very little money, I am no where near cute or handsom and I'm probably one of the weakest 22 year olds around, soon to be 23. People say that because of my kindness, I would be a good boyfriend but the thing is that only works if you can even get your foot in the door of starting a relationship and thats useually by when a girl things a guy looks cute or handsom and I already know right now that there is no way any girl could think that of me. To those who don't know, I was born with a birth deffect that makes it look like I have a huge tumor on the right side of my face but it's not a tumor, it's not somthing that can be cured either. Despite all this I am still living a good life. I have a loveing family, and I am indeed not uncomfortable where I live. I am a Christian and have been for a long time. I have a good amount of online friends and a few in real life. My hopes are to one day get a job as a writer somewhere so I can afford my own place easily. I suppose that is all for now, might write more later.  Fates Oblivion · Wed Feb 16, 2011 @ 09:12pm · 0 Comments

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