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You were my only guy friend when I was going to Waldorf. When all the other guys made fun of me and called me poor and ugly, you accepted me. You and Ian were best friends and in your own cliché, just you two. When I tried to be your friend Ian was not happy. He liked me, but I was a girl. But he didn't know I was like you, funny, loud, and carefree.

We played on the playground, you, Ian, Emma, and I. We didn't go to our knitting teacher at recess like ordered and finish our projects; instead, we dodged her and made a game of it. We got caught not even three weeks after we started, and she knew we had done it all along. I remember her screaming at us, and you trying to stifle a laugh.

When we had to do that ridiculous Robin hood musical, you got the part of Robin for act one, and John the rest of the play. I was a nobody with two very short lines. You encouraged me, telling me I was great even though my lines sucked. After, when the potluck was going, our parents talked. Your mom told my mom how you talked about me all the time at home, almost as much as Ian. By this time I had a small crush on you and it made me glow with pride that you liked me enough to talk about me.

You left Waldorf that years end and our friendship failed. Word had gotten out that I had a crush on you and it reached your ears. You confronted me and I denied it and called the girl who blabbed a b***h in an email I sent her. You stopped emailing and taking my calls.

Almost six months later, you emailed me and acted like we had talked the day before. We were talking and I said I was being sarcastic about something and you started arguing saying that I had been serious. I ended it then and there, it reminded me of my father, my bio dad.

A year and a half later I googled you. I found your dads myspace and sent him a message asking if he would ask if you would email me and saying I was sorry. A week later I checked his myspace and it could not be found. I was heartbroken you would not forgive me Zach, that you didn’t want to talk to me that much.

I have since moved away from the area, closer to you in fact. If you somehow saw this, thank you for being my friend when you were.

Love always,
Kayla

So whats happened in the real word is happy making and sad making.

On wednesday, before fourth period Tyler Rasmussen was pissing me off by repeating everything Leticia and I said to each other so I went up to him and pushed him. It caused him to stumble and almost fall so he turns to me and is like " What the ******** did you do that for??? " My inocent, sweet reply was " Anger management " which made people laugh. Tommy then makes a smart a** comment so I go at him like i'm going to kick him and eyes wide, he starts walking backwards and FALLS!( It had been raining all day and the ground is kinda smooth at school...) He fell flat on his back, laughing like an idiot and smiling at me. Every one around was laughing too. Then Jordan says to tommy " Dude, she ******** wants to ******** you! " But I was too bust laughing to care.

Later before fifth period, I see tommy. He's looking at me and glaring. I'm like ok.... and as he passes me and Leticia he hits a locker really hard making us jump. I'm confuzzled now.

On thursday, before fifth Zach was looking at the listing for who had to go back into math help and even though I knew it said my name too, I looked. I groaned and zach looks at me and says " Thats the sound I make in bed. " Wide eyed, I kicked him and he laughed.

After fifth period which is lunch, I saw Leti talking to bobbie so I shouted for her. She couldn't hear me so I shouted again-nothing. So I start running planning a surprise attack and everything is fine until I hit the mud. At first the mud was fine but as i'm about to reach the pavement I skid. WHAM! The next thing I know is i'm on my side laughing like a freakin idiot on the pavement. Leticia's all like " Holy s**t! " and random eighth graders are like " Omfg! Are you ok? " because I guess I looked like I landed really hard. Zach laughs pointing at me but I don't do anything. Leti helps me up and I dizzily nearly fall again but she caught me.

I've gotta talk to Tommy alone to see if he hates me but he's always surrounded by his posse or girls.

EDIT-

I forgot to add...

On Friday during seventh period Nick called me fat! Yes, fat. We were rehearsing our group play for english and he has to drag me to safety because I got shot. He drags me by one foot twisting my ankle, and is all like " Damn! You're heavy! " My mouth dropped open and I was like " You just called me fat. " He, wide eyed and scared because My voice was emotionless and flat. (Not good lol!) Edwin and breauna were like " Dude, you DID call her fat. " I smacked Edwin because he was laughing.

My mom is also pulling me out of school. I'm heartbroken because i'm leaving my lovely Tommy. I'm gonna go cry now.

I have a blanket which i have dubbed jr. and tommy that hot a*****e threw it on the ******** cafeteria's roof! I started crying and leti saw his expression when he came back after I chased him. I guess it was a like Oh s**t, i'm sooo sorry but I go over there you'll kill me... what should I do???

Yes i'm still being harrassed in school, but now it's sexual harassement! I'm being poked in the boob and a** by Ryan Lee who's a ******** godamned b*****d who probably won't live to be thirty.

I'm in love with panic! at the disco!!!!