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Not too far back, but about last year or so, I had gained a very low self-esteem due to my sudden depression and negativity. I was living a nightmare everyday and I wondered how was I going to live right. I began an eating disorder, wore black almost 24/7, and having thoughts of a painful suicide. I was (metaphorically speaking) being eaten alive. I gave up everything. But my eldest brother (actually my only brother) told me to get up off the ground dust yourself off, and move on. He went on and explained things I would have never thought to stop and think about. After days, weeks, even months, I finally realized and understood what he meant. I regained what I had lost. Now, I do my best to appreciate the life I was given to by my parents who unconditionally love me, and I'm living not by the way someone tells me to live, but by my own pathway to success and happiness. Life is difficult, especially through these struggling times, but the only thing you need is hope. We can really get there, if you commit you life to it.