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Mood: Motivated
Upper: Finally got my P.O.S. cd to download. Is most wondiferous.
Downer: Death of a Hero
Drink: Dr. Pepper
Music: P.O.S. "Audition"

I always told people "I'll be drawing X-men by the time I'm 25" Well, I'm about to turn 21 and I'm working with X-men. In a comic book warehouse. What do I do when I get off work? do I go home and draw my hands off? No. I sit here like a jackass in front of the computer, looking at inane bullshit that doesn't really matter to anyone including the person that originally posted it. I'm spending too much time thinking that I can do things tomorrow. I really need to stop that.

You may be wondering what got my mind into that kind of mindset. I'll tell you. One of my Heroes, Mike Wieringo died of apparent heart failure Sunday night. He was 44. He called paramedics experiencing chest pains, but died before they arrived according to reports filed by the coroners office. A service is being held for him Friday in his Hometown. Godspeed 'Ringo.

His death has gotten me thinking, especially in light of the many times in his blog that he said he had projects and plans that he would one day flesh out and produce for the public to consume and enjoy. He never got to them. My dream has always been to draw Superman for DC comics. I've, as of late been uninspired, and unmotivated. But I've started drawing more these past few days. I've started contemplating quitting my job so I could focus on drawing, but I realize that would do nothing but cause more stress for my family, and more than likely make me a grouchy b*****d due to lack of money and human interaction.

So what are my alternatives? I can either A) Say screw it and give up on my dreams, or B) Get off my lazy a**, put in the work and get a bitchin portfolio together, constantly striving to update it and be prepared for WWTX. I'm going to start going to every con I can. Especially Chicago, Philadelphia and Texas. I'm far from prepared, or ready for San Diego.

******** It, I'm going with B.

Peace for now, be safe, and love one another.