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Hello everyone, or should I say whoever happens to come across this. I know this section I designated as my fanfic section hasn't seen a great deal of original influx, but that is neither here nor there. I write today nothing other than my own questions, my own feelings.

Sometimes I find it hard to understand why the world is as it is, or should I say my life more specifically. I realize it is not within our grasp as humans to comprehend the plan God has created for us, and yet it is at moments like this I find myself pondering. I am grateful for all I've been given, yet I still question, and wonder why? Why am I alone, yes I am surrounded by others, family, friends and many others. What I seek though is something I believe we all strive to attain, I also believe many of us attain this thing yet let it waste. I speak of love, I want to fall in love, I want to have and hold someone in my arms for no other reason than to have then close to me. My heart breaks every time I see someone putting to waste this great gift, and it makes me wonder all the more why I have not received it. I thoroughly believe, no I know that I would embrace the gift, and treat it as it should be treated. Perhaps my words are nothing more than the lonely, forlorn ramblings of someone who wishes for something they may never have. Truthfully though I envy those who love, and who are loved. I find myself simply moving through life, my feelings of grandeur and amazement replaced by the bleak thought of a life never changing.

To those who read this, I thank you for offering me but a small part of your time. I want not anyone's pity, nor solace. I simply wanted to share how I felt, and I hope that none of you my friends have felt, or feel as I do and have for so long now.