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On wensday my hart had a mini hart attack but I am still alive, so on frinday I got taken to the local hospital for a scan.

And you will never guess why I had the attack ?

All because of a stupid air bubble which got in to my blood stream !!!

Now many of you will be asking how did this happen ?

Well you see i'm a diabetic & if you don't know what a diabetic is it's someone who can't eat suger and relies on tablets of injections to live.

Now when I did my morning injection one day this very small air bubble got into my blood stream via my needle, and got around my body like it was on a mini rollercoster.

Now I was very lucky, because the doctors told me that if it was any bigger it would have killed me !!!

So I nearly met the devil on that day I injected myself. twisted

For some odd reason i've been feeling like I don't belong here in this world and that I just belong 6 feet underground.

The reason for this is because last night 26/1/08 I was thinking about what I said to my girlfriend because she was complaining about her day at work and I said to her about how everything gets better & that everone does have a bad period in there life at some point.

But the thing is mines been going on for 15 years and here are the reasons why:

1) I have no friends that are near me who are the same age as who I can go out with and maybe have a veiw drinks at the local pub with.

2) Any friends I do have i've met over the internet and live in USA, Austrailia or Wales and they are all younger or older than me.

3) My health is basicly killing me, as i've been in hospital 7 times due to it.

4) I will never be able to have any of my dreams jobs which are: Being in the Army or RAF, Flying a plane for a company like British Airways or Virgen.

So alls can say is will or won't someone please kill me ?

I have a very BIG question for everyone out there, so if you can please help me, because for the past 8 days I have either fallen to sleep between the hours of 3am - 5am or I have not fallen to sleep at all.

So what do you think might be the reason for this ?
Do I have Insomnia ?
Do I have some sort of cold/bug/virus ?
Or am I worryed about something in my life ?

What do you think it might be ?

Today since I got my new job i've seen loads of Fox Hunt pictures from the past and what the people who made them have put on the painting's drawing's will hit you in a soft spot because you can really understand how the fox would have felt and you can really feel sorry for it.

But the odd thing is it has made me more intressed in The Hunt !!!

But why ?

Over the past 21 years of my life all my luck was running away it's just been bad luck for me twisted , I probbaly have only had 2 years of good luck out of the 21 years of my life but 4 years ago my luck changed.

I met this amazingly beautiful girl and fell in love with her but then after those college year days I would only see her at random times crying (which was probbaly only twice a year) but then it happened we met up again & talked to each other about Gaiaonline which we where both on (lucky me) we met on there and then it hit me sweatdrop . I had to tell her that I had a crush on her heart , so I did heart .

And with more luck hitting me biggrin she said ok xd . Then 3 days later I did it question I asked her out eek .

And she said........ YES eek .

James18UK's Life

Name: James Wilson
Sex: Male
Age: 250
Species: Pow (These are the people who protect all wildlife of the woods of the enitre world, legend has it that some of them are even as old as 10,000 and that they might even be human)

Eyes: White
Face: Black but hidden beneath the darkness of the woods
Hair: A mixed grey and white that floats freely amongst the gentle winds of the wood
Tail: A light blue tail which helps when swiming in diifficlt waters


Family: Unknowen

Liveing area: The small woods of Rutherford

Hello there happy readers today it's not a normal day today but here is what the subject is: My Secrets

For over about 4 years I have hidden a top secret from my friends & it was all because of fear but now it is time I told them and everyone on Gaia, in this country, in this world & if not every living creature in the entire universe what it is.

I'M IN LOVE WITH WINTER-KNIGHT

& the thing is it's no lie you can belive me or you can not it is up to you