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I see the darkness....
Current mood: numb
The pass few days has been rough on me. Seriously rough and I'm not sure if the reality of it all has even settled in yet. Looking around I literally see darkness bout to engulf me in. I try to use my light within and no such luck. I would run but that makes it stronger. To find a cure I have no where to look, for happiness only stuns it for a few. After that it feeds on my energy. Why is it everytime I get my life sorta back on track this s**t happens. Am I not meant to be happy for a period in my life? I been crying on the inside but I'm not sure how much longer I can hold it. In my eyes I live far beyond fantasy, everythings dreamlike,everything perfect til the darkness invades. Everything I built up the past few months seems to crumble to the ground and what use to be good isn't good at all. Everything that I question has hit the wall, hell I even begun to question who I am. The darkness is tempting, it's everything I ever known, and I just can't seem to find the light within to send it away. As it overcomes me, I grab a mask from my world to make everyone else unaware, of the trouble it cause. Here is my plea, someone come save me.