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My journal, you expected some thing else?
My novel.
For a few monthes, I've been working-on a novel. At first, it was about a femme of whom is researching Gods, Goddesses, spirits, and various extrahuman things of which she had discovered existed, for she, her self, was sent to Purgatory. She has had three total attempts at life for some additional studies. She witnesses multiple people's lives from all sorts of times and gains information from them. There are multiple Gods and Goddesses (In my use of the word, Gods are the most powerful and Goddesses are at a lower class, not based on sexes.) in conflicts and that's basically where I was stuck, other than I was working on the story of her girl-friend/lover-thing until I lost it to an electrical outage and not remembering to save.

As of a few weeks ago, I redid the deal; multiple stories tied together, on main story-line focused on a single character with very frequent delusions, with two apparent catagories and one with seeming purpose. My old idea will be one of the many stories involved in this and I'm not doing so well with releasing information, because I just don't want to.

Oh-well, that should be enough for now, any-way,... except the name of the full novel will be 'Nemesis Unworthy - Sell this to Children'. The proceeding, three books will be called 'Sell this to Children: Epiphany', 'Sell this to Children: Medicate', and (This was all in the order.) 'Sell this to Children: Ofretribuere', because concluding with Old English just works. For reference:
nem·e·sis (nm-ss) Pronunciation Key Audio pronunciation of "nemesis" [P]
n. pl. nem·e·ses (-sz)

1. A source of harm or ruin: Uncritical trust is my nemesis.
2. Retributive justice in its execution or outcome: To follow the proposed course of action is to invite nemesis.
3. An opponent that cannot be beaten or overcome.
4. One that inflicts retribution or vengeance.
5. Nemesis Greek Mythology.. The goddess of retributive justice or vengeance.

[Greek, retribution, the goddess Nemesis, from nemein, to allot. See nem- in Indo-European Roots.]

And that should be it for now, thanks for looking.


I went to the dentist this day
for eating too much sperm
again, but it's all good. No pain, I just was very nervous over the novacaine shots; I was shaking before, during, and after until I was calmed down when the fillings were being done. It's kind-a annoying being numb afterwards, but yeah. ... I could feel the slick, cold metal of that needle, man, frigging sick and I love the taste of metal.

I guess that's good enough for now. I'm going to try to sleep soon after I fap, dur dur dur, frigging p***s.


I'm scared of sleeping.
It's hard for me to do these things, because my mind intentionally tries to forget ideas after I think of them, so I'll just post what I've said to Leumas:
Soroma Scull: ... I really should sleep.
Soroma Scull: I'll do the octo one more time, I guess. I just hate having to stop actually feeling happy like this.
Soroma Scull: And my computer crashed, because my digital camera, a pound in weight, fell to it's shell.
Leumas Mahama: o.o
Leumas Mahama: Damn.
Soroma Scull: ... I don't want to sleep, because I know I'll just feel horrible again when I wake.
Soroma Scull: I actually feel happy now.
Leumas Mahama: How longg can you stay up?
Soroma Scull: Not much longer, I have an appointment with Kathy.
Leumas Mahama: Oh Um...go to bed with the good feeling?
Soroma Scull: I can't, because I know the morrow will just be one more day.
Leumas Mahama: o.o
Soroma Scull: All any one with depression focuses on is direment and schizophrenics, being so unfortunately, yet fortunately, unique, definitely have problems with depression.
Soroma Scull: I believe I won't have fun when I wake, because the chance seems so low, according to previous results.
Leumas Mahama: Do something different?
Soroma Scull: I know.
Soroma Scull: I obvoiusly did this day.
Soroma Scull: My teeth are rotting and need to be fixed, gee; stupid rescheduling.
Soroma Scull: And there comes stupid p***s, 'Hey-hey-, I'll make you feel better! =D'
Soroma Scull: c** on bbio
Soroma Scull: lfaj
Soroma Scull: Good night.


The day I decide.
When I went to Kathy's this day, I decided, after her saying of how she notices her explaining to me the importance of what I need to do as seeming to be irrelevant and after I noticed I certainly did feel very different, I am going to make my self feel better and I am going to do things, Kathy's expression gradually changed from looking discouraged to cheerful, when I told mom and Kathy of what I thought and decided. At one point, we was laughing about me having seen a funny bumper sticker on a happy-to-be-Christian's car and I noticed I felt weird laughing of it, but I said of what the bumper sticker was. Clearly, I need to learn a handful of things still of relating with people.

I'm not going to stop now and am going to try to continue to keep my self at a steady ascent through kicking-a**, other-wise known abouts as bettering my self. It'll be hard and I have a lot I need to learn the rythm of, but I'll eventually get through all of them I could ever want. Currently, these things, of which I can think of at this moment, are cleaning, being resourceful, being beneficial, excersize, stretching, self-health, being my self, practice of fighting, visual art, audial art, and the ability to work by rythm.

Ironically, this is the day I forgot my risperdal in the morning.


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