It continues to gnaw at me with its perfect porcelain teeth...Saying its perfect and better then me...Eating and eating and eating for years...So easy to let it consume me and sleep...my darkness.... I fall in an ocean of despair and sadness...So easy...to give up...so...easy...to give in...
No...A voice...My inner voice...It yells and yearns to be loved. It howls at my self to not let it consume me...Not to be swallowed up. It speaks of me being worthy of love...to love oneself...
I pull myself out of this sludge of depression. I pull and pull OH HOW I PULL MYSELF OUT!...I'm out but not safe...I swim to the surface only to be met by its ivories...I stare at it...it is eyeless...Nothing but teeth spitting out words to bring me down...
It faces me...Like a mammoth being armless and legless... of all my despair, grief, sadness and loneliness...it bears it huge teeth at my face and thousands upon thousands of its brethren...small gnashers...small tentacles with teeth the gnawed at me for years...so consumed with itself...Pride..all speak at me to give it all up...Hopeless futile...
A small light from my heart...one thousand points of light wraps around me...Like an armor...In my right hand, a sword of confidence that shines brightly in this ocean... and on my left a shield bearing a smile...A smile so huge that you can't help but smile... The water all around slows me down but...My voice says never to give in...
So as I began to face this monster...My inner demons...I began to love who i am...And what i am...It yells at me a deafening roar but all i can do is grip my blade...my confidence...and smile at it. The showdown between me and my inner darkness...begins...
Nico Chiari Community Member 
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