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Well first to answer one question.... no I am not dyslexic, though I did suffer a severe wrist injury in the past that healed inproperly. As a result my left hand moves slower than my right and my wrists are slightly crooked. this results in my hands beign misplaced on the keybaord as well as both space and letter inversions as I type. I appologise in advance for any difficulty reading my entires

now to the business of tonights entry

I had a rather rough day due to my shattered tooth acting up, I also miss my singificant other and have not heard from her today. But I digress.... due to my tooth and more mundanr problems such as cable going out, my computere acting up, etc I was rather edgey. Something occured that offended me and I overacted a bit, and as I did not explain why I was really upset people took it as I was just irked.... unfortunatley things escelated from there. In the end there was a logn and drawn out argument and I am not longer really comfortable in the thread that is my pride and joy here on gaia...my 300+ page Shadow Hearts thread. I have put so much work into that thread but now it just feels so hostile. I appologised and removed my own posts that mayhave offended people... btu no one else has been willign to do so, whuich simply adds to the feeling of hostility in the thread.

I am afraid the only way I will be comfortable in my own thread, with my own greatest accomplishemtn on gaia, may be for me to delete it and start over if things continue as they are.

I know it is just the internet, but this thread was one of my refuges over the last 5 months when things were going badly... and it just does not feel the same right now.

Though some may not beleive it I am rather insecure most fo the time, and so not hearing from my singificant other for a bit... plus all these other occurences... has got me feelign rather down.

Inspired by my special soemoen I am considering ditchign my procastination and either gettign back into Tai Chi or possably giving yoga a try...maybe both if I can find the time and resources needed, that beign good manuals on the two. I am more interested in getting back into Tai Chi to be honest but yoga has a certain appeal to it as well......and let me assure you ti is true what they say, when you are in love you are more willing to work on those little things and try to better yourself...and I think ti is because you want the best for the person you love.

But my hopless romantic side aside for a moment, I got soem fairly good news last night...I thought my christmas would be almost nonexistent with a total gift of maybe $70 from all my relatives....till I was informed last night by my mother that her and my dad are also sendign a $100 check...more than doublign what I have for Christmas. But no amount fo money can get me the one thing I really want for Christmas....but that shouldn't be a problem next year.

I am tryign to keep busy as I am waiting for a few packages and letters an das such I tent to get anxiosu and paranoid....and I have been more paranoid than is normal latley, not suree why though, so keeping busy is a good thing. Helps me keep from thinking to much or goign straight to the worst case scenario.

well here it is the first post

I spent today settign up a new RPG on gaia for the HEllsing guild, I also happily made a donation to my darling's quest for fairy wings.

I am a little dissapointed with how my last halloween item sold...only 3k while the first sold for 8k. But I am still happy because it gave me the gold to help my darlign Meg on her quest.