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I've been wanting to phase out TheRealTrunks for a long time now, I feel it's time to shed that name and move on. But I hadn't been able to find an appropiate name to change to. I'd been thinking about this name for a while. I loved the poem and the imagery that this name invokes is really something. I already have a few pics in mind to use for sigs. Anyway I want to thank Jenn for letting me use this name again. heart heart
You are teh secks, woman! blaugh

Atemonaku hitori samayoi arukitsuzuketa
Kasuka na toiki o tada shiroku somete
Utsuri kawari yuku kisetsu no sono hakanasa ni
Wake mo naku namida ga koboreta
"Ima mo aishite iru..."

Furitsuzuku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora o miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete

Wakari aenakute nandomo kizutsuketeita
Sonna toki demo itsumo yasashikute
Fui ni watasareta yubiwa ni kizamareteita
Futari no yakusoku wa kanawanai mama ni
"Ima mo oboeteiru..."

Toozakaru omoide wa itsumademo mabushi sugite
Motto soba ni itakatta
Mou nido to aenai kedo itsumo soba de sasaete kureta
Anata dake wa kawaranai de ite
Saigo ni miseta namida ga kisenakute

Kono shiroi yukitachi to issho ni kiete shimattemo
Anata no kokoro no naka ni zutto saite itai kara

Yorisotte dakiatta nukumori wa wasurenaide ne
Chigau dareka o aishitemo
Saigo ni kiita anata no koe o kono mama zutto hanasanai mama
Fukaku nemuri ni ochitai

Furitsuzuku kanashimi wa masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
Zutto sora o miageteta
Kono karada ga kieru mae ni ima negai ga todoku no nara
Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete
"Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete.."

Remember back when Ice Cube was a good rapper? he was actually thought of as tough and stuff? Remember back when NWA was the s**t?....damn I feel old...anyway....>.>

So today I took Brenda out, you might remember her from earlier posts. I did like her and was interested in being more than friends, but that was long ago, now we are good friends and I'm not interested in anything more than that. So hanyway, her birthday was Saturday and I wanted to take her out and have some fun. We went to the local theme park, though I practically had to drag her into every ride. I was able to convince her to get on most of them, so it was all cool and fun.

We went to eat after that and she showed me a new Chinese restaurant. Turns out we both love that stuff so it was all good on that front too. Tons of yummy eats at the place and I was able to teach her how to eat with chopsticks too. The only slightly odd thing there was when she asked me what I thought of her parents...although we usually talk about each other's families she usually just complains about her brothers and other things, but for some reason she wanted me to like her parents. And she also made a point to bring up the fact that she'd talked to her mom about me a lot...but anyway we joked about our fortunes in the fortune cookies and moved on.

After that I decided to take her to an arcade that was close by. She's not really into games but I figured it was just something to end the day. We didn't start out to good since she couldn't get the hang of the driving games we tried (she's better at me driving stick shift so I thought that would be an easy type to start out on....so much for that theory =/) We tried other types of games that she did like a bit more, but nothing too special. However we soon made our way to the fighting games. Specifically to Tekken 5. She wasn't too thrilled at the game at first, but right from the start she was hooked. We spent the rest of the time at the machine and by the end she was starting to get the hang of it. I told her she should come over my house so we can play it again. Strangely enough it brought back the family issue again, this time she started asking what my family thought of her.

Anyway it was all good and I'm pretty sure she had a good time. Which is all good cause I had fun too. Today I didn't even have to use my A.K.

I gotta say it was a good day

Hokay so like I always like keeping my hair nice and neat and stuff. I'm very particular about who cuts my hair because it's my one little indulgence you could say. I'm not totally bitchy or anything but I do like to only get my hair cut by certain people. Since my sister likes cutting hair and she knows how I like it she's usually the one to do it, but every once in a while I go and get it cut elsewhere. I know this probably sounds a bit too shallow, but bear with me a little. WHen I was little my dad was in control of my hair. I hated the barber he took me to and it always ended in pain for me, both because the guy didn't keep his tools sharp enough and because if I flinched even a little my dad would get angry and it would result in more than a scolding. Later on the style was also a problem. He insisted that a mullet was the best haircut in the world >_<. Now it wasn't a totally horrific mullet as far as mullets go, but I still hate those things with a passion. So ever since I was able to choose my hair grooming I've been selective of it. It's always with the same stylists, the same methods and details I need done. Maybe it sounds like I'm too much of a b***h or something, but it's not really all that bad. I explain to the person what I want the first time I get my haircut with them and then the following times it's sort of routine unless I specify a change. Easy non?
So after this person has known me at least a couple of years and after getting a haircut from them several times why do they have to mess it up?!?!
I understand that it's a habit to ask, but the instructions are always the same. Size 1 on the side and back, short cur with sissors on the top and a trim on the bangs to even them out. It's the way it's been for almost 5 years now after I stopped letting it grow. (before it almost reached my shoulders) After asking and recieving the same instructions this woman goes and cuts off the bangs >_<!!
Granted, they're not big yet since I chopped them off at the beginning of summer. But it still annoys me that they messed it up after I had told them how I wanted it. >_<

On the other hand, I kinda likes the way it looks O_O

>.>

*Edited to fit author's update*
This is an amazingly beautiful poem by the amazingly beautiful Jenny. Not only is this thing amazing but I really want to hear her sing it. Some of ya'll know a lot of these lyrics hit really close to home. So anyway, without further ado, here it is:




Broken Toy Angel

Where has my inspiration gone? Lost like a rolling wave out on the ancient sea. Oh how I mourn each day and night, wishing to feel you once again, your warmth, your gaze, your light, your grace, but always in vain. Always in vain, my love.

Hopeless, I look to the sky as the stars dot the horison. Searching among them but none of them remind me of the ones I saw in your eyes the first time we danced. Not one of them do, my love.

I'm numb like an urchin in the cold, dead like a wilted rose among the thorny weeds. Empty inside and all alone, crying to help to ease the pain inside my heart, inside my soul, I'm crying for you. I'm crying for you again.

I stand on the shore in the cold as the wind swirls around me. Weary I sit on the sand as the tears fall. Time seems to fly past me, but still I cry. Still hoping that I might see your smile again, but the grief is too much to bear alone. Lost are the pleasures of touch, for the pain has numbed me. Oh how I wish to feel the wind on my face one last time. Just once again, God, I pray.

One last time I cry out your name, hoping that somehow you'll answer me. When my hopes are shattered yet again, the tears swell in my eyes. Glistening like diamonds they fall on the sand, fading untill they are gone. Days fly past as if they were hours. Time is no longer an element with this icey sorrow.

Never more shall I see your smile, nor feel the warmth of your arms again, but I'll always be your broken toy angel...forever.. my love.

~The ever amazing Jenn

This one was hard ;_;
Last time it was a drastic change too, I'd always had a red spikey hairstyle (The only time it wasn't spikey was witht he cornrows) but I made a big change when I got the silver hair covering my face....I luffed it though. If it hadn't been for my headband I would never had gotten rid of it...;_;

This was another big change though, once again my avvy looks completely different. I guess that's a good thing, my current outfit and hairstyle are really close to what I look like, the only difference would be the eye color, and the body structure of course.
But overall I think it's pretty nifty.

On a totally unrelated and related note
I am still missing Jenneh ;_;

If you can't tell who this song is for by now then you don't need to know.
Now this song is not meant to be taken literally, most of it applies in a figurative way. It's not really a one night stand or anything like that obviously. It's someone that has become a very close friend very quickly. still, just don't take everything word for wordsbut rather interpret the lyrics and you'll probably get what I'm trying to say. Anyway, still missing ya ;_;


Red Light- Usher


It's crazy
I can't believe that you
would be the one to do
do me like you do
get back here baby


Girl you let me
have my way and i was thinkin i could get it again
Baby we could be friends if you only(ssh)
And you show me
Just how quick your tires could spin
You were off in the wind
Tell me were did you go


when you left (oh)
I'm thinkin which way did she go
I should have known that you would lead me on girl
Im in the wind on cruise control
I gotta be dreamin cuz i never felt like this before


it was supposed to be
just a one night
in and out and im out the door
but she's got me sittin here
at the red light
drivin round lookin out for her

it was supposed to be
just a one night
in and out and im out the door
so why am i sittin here
at the red light
drivin round lookin out for her
lookin out for her


Now its rainin
and i'm lookin over at the passenger side
thinkin back in my mind how you set me off
She was stoppin and droppin me
switchin from fast to slow
but that aint have nothing on how you got
when i got you home


when you left (oh)
I'm thinkin which way did she go
The way you touched yourself had me up the wall
Im in the wind on cruise control
I'm searchin for you cuz i can't seem to let you go

it was supposed to be
just a one night
in and out and im out the door
but she's got me sittin here
at the red light
drivin round lookin out for her

it was supposed to be
just a one night
in and out and im out the door
so why am i sittin here
at the red light
drivin round lookin out for her
lookin out for her

you know
i really only thought
that this would be a one night stand
what you doin to me
come on
what you doin to me


maybe(maybe)
she's runnin home to someone else(someone else)
or maybe(or maybe)
She lost my number in her cell
(oooh babe)
(what you doin to me)
or maybe(or maybe)
she's never done like this before
cuz i cant see (can't see)
her not comin back for more
more

it was supposed to be
just a one night
in and out and im out the door
but she's got me sittin here
at the red light
drivin round lookin out for her

it was supposed to be
just a one night
in and out and im out the door
so why am i sittin here
at the red light
drivin round lookin out for her
lookin out for her


it was supposed to be
just a one night
in and out and im out the door
but she's got me sittin here
at the red light
drivin round lookin out for her

it was supposed to be
just a one night
in and out and im out the door
so why am i sittin here
at the red light
drivin round lookin out for her
lookin out for her

So I'm talking to Dri (That's MISS Syn Beloved to you, bub!) earlier tonight and she mentiones her quest (Donate to her, bitches!!) Anyway I remember I have some items for her for her Bday and stuff, while I proceed to send her the trade she asks if I want an Oct.2k4 letter and a headband.....HOW THE ******** CAN I SAY NO?!?!?!?!?!
So I ended up giving her probably half of what she gave me....can you people see why she's my ******** guardian angel? Anyways I luff her very much and I send her much glompage and whatever else is allowed that won't get me an a** kicking by her BF. And yeah this is just the materialistic aspect, if we get into how many times she's talked sense into me and whatnot I'd spend all night typing and still not get done. Anyway thank you woman, as with all your gifts they're not leaving my inventory unless I'm dead or something.

On a totally unrelated and related topic.

I miss ya Jenneh crying

Ok so this entry was supposed to be about someone, but since Journals was down, yesterday I already made an entry in my Xanga, however since this was supposed to be dedicated to her I'll put something else instead.

This song is the ending theme for Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex; music by the great Yoko Kano, lyrics by Scott Matthew. I think it describes the the Jennifer a lot, at least from how I see her.


She's so cold and human
It's something humans do
She stays so golden solo
She's so number nine
She's incredible math
Just incredible math

And is she really human?
She's just so something new
A waking lithium flower
Just about to bloom
I smell lithium now
Smelling lithium now

How is she when she doesn't surf?
How is she when she doesn't surf?
How is she when she doesn't surf?
I wonder what she does when she wakes up?
When she wakes up

So matador
So calm
So oil on a fire
She's so good
She's so goddess lithium flower
So sonic wave
Yeah, she's so groove, yeah
She's so groove
Yeah

Wow, where did she learn how to surf?
Wow, where did she learn how to surf?
Wow, where did she learn how to surf?
You know I've never seen the girl wipe out

How does she so perfectly surf?
How does she so perfectly surf?
How does she so perfectly surf?
I wonder what she does when she wakes up?

I wanna go surfing with her
I wanna go surfing with her
I wanna go surfing with her
I wanna go surfing with her