its been decided. tommorow will be they day my heart breaks for him.tomorrow will be the last day i hear his purr, feel the touch of his fur, and look into those loveing eyes... some people tell me he's just a cat, to forget about him cuz ill probebly get a new one, but i say no, i wont get a new one, because to me he's more then just a cat, hes a member of the family. tomorrow i will say goodbye not only to him but to all those other pets i had before him that i didnt have the chance to say good bye to, to pumpkin who 'ran away' to tiffany who died on my birthday and everyone pretended it was alright. to brownie who i spent the night preying to live till morning who died after i fell asleep. to peaches who i watched die unknowingly, and to all the other many pets ive had. tomorrow is friday march 24th. the day that charlie is to be put to sleep. if i turn around i can see him in the window, he seems clueless about what is going to happen... i dont want things to end with him, i need more time with him but the times run out. ive tried so many things to keep him but its not working... even tho charlie wasnt technically mine i still thought of him as mine... he would sometimes come in at night amd wake me up just to love, to purr as i pet him and kiss his head- if you dont concider that love then i dont know what is... hes helped me through so many hard times i wish i could repay him for all he's done for me.. i will never forget him, i trained him he was my best friend for so long... when my parents brought him home from a day trip they went on i first saw him and thought 'no. i dont want him. i dont want this cat get rid of him.' only after we drove to my uncles and he had decided to sleep on my lap, no one elses did i decide that i wanted him. since then hes been mine... i feel bad for not wanting him, but maybe a part of me had remembered him from another life... i dont know what is going to happen tomorrow, will the vets smell the same, just like it always did the many times that i went there on weekends, will i sit on the benches and think the same things that i thoght every time i took a break from working, or will my heart be so funn of misery for him that i wont be able to say or do a thing. i try to be strong and not to cry, but it doesnt work all the time. im just so glad that everyone around me cares... thankx Jessye, kally, lindzay, emily, becca, mehek, kelsey and all the many people i havnt named. i love all you guys ur the best and for charlie...
Rest In Peace Charlie. I Love You
