OMIGOD DARNNNIT ALL!! I JUST TYPED A WICKEDLY LONG ENTRY AND NOW IT'S ALL GONE!!! STUPID INTERNET EXPLORER!! Well, anyway... like I said before... I feel really crappy right now. I had a nice day when I left to go to the orthadontist... it felt nice going for a drive, listening to music, having the wind blow in your face and to admire the lovely weather... but after that, upon arriving home, that happiness quickly dissapeared. It was wonderful... to appreciate things in life... but now that's gone... and once again, I'm left with my depression... There are times when I feel alright... but I always revert back... well, to feeling these terrible feelings... I wish I could just fall asleep and dream... I don't want to go to school, nor have any worries and cares... if I can't be truly happy in life... then i want to at least be able to create a little peace somewhere... I don't know... being at home just reminds me of someone... I'd like to be by myself... and I'd like to be with my own dreams and fantasies... I miss my life before... how great it was to be addicted to Envy and 140 other fine bishies... For once, I'm rather impatient... I want instant happiness. I don't feel like going to school, nor do i feel like being with my friends... well, im seeing some this saturday though... so I don't know... maybe I'll feel better... Hahaha... i like this picture thingie... sig thingie... Naruto: "if i toss this 50 cent coin, what are the chances of me getting head?" Well!! I must think positively!! although it's absolutely hard to!! Things MUST get better!!! or else I shall cease to exist!! GOSH DARN IT!! RAWR!!! *bites someone randomly* :3 i don't love my friends like "that"... and i miss "those" feelings... a good majority or happiness or beauty is fleeting... Things are so damn unfair... XDDD I AM BIPOLAR!!! HEE HEE!!! Well, I'm trying to be happy, so ya gotta give me SOME credit!! GOD!!! I'm only HUMAN!! no wait.. i'm a VAMPIRE!! *giggles* Well, I'm off for the night now... this is a wickedly short entry!!! I NEED BEER, DAMMIT!! TO DRINK AWAY MY WORRIES!!! XDDD hee hee... I'm uberly tired, sooo~~~!!! Nighty night!!
hhaa... i remember this stupid poem i once wrote!!! "Don't stare at this face... this face that hates... this face that lies... this face that creates... images of vanity... and dark insanity... don't stare at this face... that lacks all grace... which bears no trace... of beauty. Look at my eyes... Gaze into my heart... clouded by lies... and cleared again by cries... of deep affinity... tainted by sinful longing... and smooth serenity... Look at my eyes.. which hold a guise... of bittersweet happiness... and flashing surprise... These eyes that shine... with beauty divine... These eyes that shine with a light only mine... A Heart that sings ... with a voice of its own... a heart that strings a melody of lone... as these eyes cry... white tears of stone... "
ok, seriously... now i'm REALLY off... just wanna say WOOT!! NO FREAKIN UGLY a** GYM TOMORROW!!! HAHA!!! Soccer indoors for gym class= uberly gay
 ExplosiveFunGirl · Thu May 03, 2007 @ 02:22am · 1 Comments |
