I don't know what to do. I am getting REALLY upset now. It seems like nothing i say come out right and no matter what i say, someone gets pissed off at me!
My boyfriend is pissed at me.
Kayla is probably still pissed at me.
A good half of sorrow girls hates my guts...
I found a baby bird and i don't know what to do with it... should i let it go outside and let it take it's chances or should i try to keep it as a pet? That is, if it survives the night. I have to find a way to pay for my friend's wedding gift... with a job that i make about 80$ a week at right now. Wonderful, right? I almost broke up with Nick last night, things got so bad. I was crying my eyes out and he actually laughed because he said i was over reacting. He lied to me again. I am sick of lies... i really am. I am sick of his friends (Ryan and Sam and Joey [joey never did anything wrong but he is still part of the issue]). How can he still be best friends with people who got me fired from a job i LOVED?! I can't even think about it without crying.
The doctors aren't communicating so they ******** up on my sister again... she is alright for the time being but they may have ripped her stitches inside her so we have to keep an eye out for a fever or anything else strange... cause it might kill her. I guess i should be a doctor, not and artist... cause as of now, with no training, i know to read a file that says what the OTHER doctor did and to not blow up a balloon inside something to stretch it if it already has stitches in it. *sighs* I just want to scream and cry and run away right now. Nothing is going right at all... NOTHING. I am jealous of Elaine so much... she is starting a family. I know i should go to college first... but i could still go to college if i was married... but i don't wanna marry a stoner... i mean... if you smoke pot EVERY time you get stressed, how are you ever going to learn to cope without it?! I made that mistake taking anti depressants... now they are about to run out and i am going to ******** kill myself because i can't handle my life WITH them... let alone WITHOUT them. ><
Sorry... rant.... if you actually read this... leave a note for me. I would like to know who cares enough... but only leave a note if you have something nice to say. Kurt, no lecturing about my position on the pot thing....
Kayla, Don't take any of this the wrong way. When i said you were probably pissed at me it is nothing against you, just the fact that you are still probably pissed at me. ><
Brian, yes i know you care... but i need someone i can talk to more
Nick, You are never ******** on gaia or myspace and you don't even have the common decency to leave me a comment or a simple "I love you" on my page, even though i showed you how so really, yes... this is against you... I am so ******** pissed at you, you will never even KNOW! But of course, you wont read this so it really doesn't ******** matter now does it!?
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~ Dryden.
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