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Hey,
It's been awhile since i last posted right?
I know like virtually noone reads this but..
It's a good head clearing..
I've done some stupid things in my life.
But I think I just reached the stupidist.

I got to the happiest point in my life.
And ******** it over big time
Maybe life testing me?
Maybe I'm just a dumb b***h.
Well whatever.

I think I've just lost the only person who has loved me for me,
The person who cared for me.
The person I love, a different love to others.

I have to go ******** things up don't I?

Then what do I do?
Instead of trying to sort it.
I go to my room, crying.
Crying and crawling back to the same old thing.

I know I need to talk to him.
I know I need to change.
I know I have to learn to trust my heart
when it tells me he wont be like others.
To learn to trust him fully.

All these things.
I find hard to do.
But I must

Yet whats the point now?
I basically ended it last night.
He's moved on or will be.

If that person is reading this.
I'm sorry.
For everything.

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