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well for the past few weeks I thought I had a lingering stomach flu as most of you know already. As it turns out I was wrong, and the doctor told me that I have a bleeding ulcer and a bad one, haha I could have died from it, and he says it's still near that stage so I'm near terminal, basically sitting on the fence and could fall either way and I should rest and not do anything for at least a week. Still I don't think I can do that all, I'm going to keep on working, and see how I do in basketball on monday, I can't live my life in fear afterall that things will just get worse. I know I won't die for several reasons;
1. I'm too stubborn to die, death's been dogging my footsteps since I could walk, and I don't want to die just yet.
2. I've proven doctors wrong before when they said I'd never run again and I'll do it again.
3. Vomiting up blood doesn't mean I'm going to die, sure it makes me light headed and weak but I'll pull through.
4. The body will do as the mind wills it, as long as I have the willpower to live I shall live, and I'm not going anywhere yet.

So basically F the doctor I don't want to just sit around and do nothing for god knows how long, I will heal but I will do it in my own way. Still I guess next time I feel sick I shouldn't wait until I'm coughing up blood and can barely move before I go see a doctor, as it turns out it can be very detrimental to my health in the long term. I'm going to make it through this though, so none of you who read this should worry. I'm a trooper and what doesn't kill me makes me stronger, it takes a lot more than a little internal bleeding to put me down for the count. Take care of yourselves and have a good one.
-Jay