last night it rained i look out my windown and started to think about the last time i was ever huged.it's kind of weird cuz when your like five everyone loves you and they all love and hug you.but when you get older all you get is that same out hug that just feels like being under a bag of wrinkles.i miss being huged i never realy do get hugs my friends don't actly never hug me daily i only get huged by my dad by in the moring before i go to school.it's like sometimes even when he's miles away he feels like i'm lost and lonly even if it's just a call from my dad sometimes he'll call me when i feel like crying and he'll just say hi.my mom always makes me mad theres naver a time when i stay happy.my mom always just nagges me.the last time she huged me when i was like on the first day of grad school when she droped me off.sometimes i feel so unloved and theres no one to just give me a good long hug when ever i need it.some people think i just act to mature and i probley do but i gess i have my mom to blam if you ask me she was never realy mother mattreal so at most of the time i'm my own mom even thought that sounds weird but you get the point.i never get a decent kiss insted of my mom tunking me in a giveing me a good night kiss she just cheeks to see if i brushed my teeth. rolleyes she can never tell how i feel.but thats just my mom her self.. emo
 [.kandy.] · Thu Apr 19, 2007 @ 11:48pm · 1 Comments |
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