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Well, here is where my ramblings begin. Mainly they will all be in the form of what could be considered poems and such, lol. Ohhh...and a warning, some of them are kinda violent/filled with swear words. They are just my rambliings so yeah....





<center>S.S.D.D.

I can�t take this s**t no more
What the ******** is going on
Are girls blind
They go with these
Wanna be gang banger
s**t faced punk loser
Losing their mind pot smoker
Good for nothing a*****e jock joker
When right in front of them
Stands me
The going somewhere
Sweet and caring
Nice guy
I always am by your side
Lending a hand
Or giving you a shoulder to cry
But you never give me a try
You fall for a popular a*****e
Or a wanna be
But I have to ******** ask why
None of them treat you right
They see a piece of meat
Something onto which to release their needs
Never loving
Never caring
Always swearing
Always cheating
Always beating
Yet, you don�t walk away
WHY
I care for you
I hurt when you do
Joy comes when you are happy
How do I get you to notice me
Should I be something am not
Should I say �hey ******** you�
Or only care for myself
Am sorry
I can�t
I have to be who I am
Am the nice guy
So who the ******** are you.


My Death

Death follows me
Or do I follow death
We always court each other
But we never touch
I want to be alone
I want to be loved
I need someone else
But I care for no one
My life is empty
Filled only with depression
I never see the light
I always fall into darkness
I love no one
I need someone
My life is empty
I shall end it

The knife shimmers
My hand shakes
I can see my wrist
But I cannot cut
I don�t have the will
Or am I afraid
I have nothing to lose
But I have so much to gain
When did I die
Where is my life
Would anyone care
If my life ended now

People would weep
Then forget
I would again be alone
But I would have nothing more
I want to close my eyes
I never want to wake up
I feel so empty
I am all alone
I need some one
But I care for none
Please save me from myself
I am falling to despair
I have lost my grip
I have lost my sight
Tomorrow is the day
I die</center>