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the numbness of needing someone

once lingered above me

now it is gone. Why ?

have i found what i wanted

or was it not to be.... to love someone .

the words " I Love You" would have no meaning .

Then what is it I want ? To be held or to be alone .

Those words " I Love You " spiral aruond me as i am confused.

The numbness is gone I do not linger for the warmth of another , asthough I wish to be alone.

Am I to young to have such emotions ?

Or is it I long for such thing that I feel nothing ?

Or is it all i have received is pain ?

I am no longer numb to the voice of another .

How I wish I could have the one thing I want ...... to be numb . To be scared .

Or is it a mirage that I want to feel the numbness ?

Or is it true ? am i to young to know ?

i keep waiting , wanting to grow up .

Avting above my age .

Why do I feel so lonly when i have friends and family ?

Do I linger for someone to hold me , embrace me to say such words .

Please tell me . Im waiting as I cry tears of confussion . Tell me so .

How I linger in cofussion .)


poem by ~Emyri29~