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"Now Ritsyuu, I'll be back shortly, I just have to pick up one last thing. . So dont go wondering out alright?"

That was the last thing I can rememeber him saying to me. . My own brother, told me to wait, and so I did.
I waited for hours and hours, and as night drew close, I started to become worried "Where'd he go? When's Cain
coming back?" Those were the only words I could think of at the time, well, all until Kii burst in, panting heavily,
and quickly rushing me out the door "Hurry up! We dont have long!" Was all he said to me, I rememeber his voice
seeming to be quivering, I thought something bad happend. And well, I was right. . something bad did happen. . .

"Kii. . Ritsyuu, you. . made it" Those words came from the mouth of my dying brother.
It seems on the way to the store Cain was heading to, a drunk truck driver desided to test the game 'Chicken' just as Cain's motorcycle was drawing near. And like most, they collided, and the inpack was fatel seeing Cain was knocked sky clear off
his vehicle, and the driver managed to smash Cains bike into him just as he reached the ground. .

"Please. . Please forgive me Ritsyuu, I dint get to your gift. . I dint make it. . Im sorry" Cain seemed to only have that on his mind.
It had been my 10th birthday that day, and Cain wanted to surprise me with a gift he specially ordered, just for me. . But he dint even make it in distance of the store, he dint make anywhere close to home either, so it took hours before cops and medics, found him laying injured on the ground.

"Ritsyuu. . Hug him. . He could really use one now" Kii told me, I only but nodded and ran over to Cain, holding him in one of the tightest holds I could ever give. And I rememeber then, Cain's arms wrapped around me, and he whispered 'I dont want to ever see. . That cute innocent face cry, alright? Your my little sister. . Act and be strong, for me" And those there, were what everyone said to be, his death words.

My brother dint wake up after his arms fell limp from around me, he dint open his eyes or talk anymore either. . It made my eyes sting, and in my heart I knew I felt like breaking down into tears, but since Cain had told me to be strong, I only stood still, and let those burning hot tears stream down my face. I did cry, but I also was strong, I held back my sobs, and held back my crys of pain.

I wasnt crying becuase my brother had died. . I was crying becuase it was to make my heart become more strong, those tears were very warm, and as they dripped to the ground, my heart began to strengthen with each drop.

"Cain. . please come back, please open your eyes. . Please. ." Every night I would stay up saying that to myself. My heart felt distroyed, I felt almost as if it was my fault, though Kii insisted it was nothing of the sort, and told me that I still had him, and to smile for the grace of everyone who's died since then.

"I dont wanna lose anyone else. . .I alredy lost Cain. . I already lost Mommy and Daddy. . And now Kii is missing. . .
I can only think to ask myself one last question, as I gaze into the pale blue sky.

IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE I CAN LOSE?